really not to be dramatic, but
I left the poly and nonmonogamy subreddits, just not fun anymore,
relationship anarchism is a different thing from poly,
holding onto people loosely, is not poly, they're so ... holding on so tightly ... so much jealousy and possession, so much controlling, so much policing, like monogamy extrapolated (primary, secondary,) instead of feeling infinite love for the universe and all of its pain, all of its separation, all of its grief,
Tuesday night, feeling the grief,
labeling the grief
am I finally ready to disappear? ready to let everybody else disappear, the transition anxiety is ...
sure, I can think now that I'm solving the riddle of the transition anxiety, but then come Friday, I'll still feel it,
but I've labeled it, which makes it easier to cope, I've given it a name, and I can wait until it goes away,
because everything goes away
goodbye subreddits, you're just not fun anymore
relationship anarchism is a different thing from poly,
holding onto people loosely, is not poly, they're so ... holding on so tightly ... so much jealousy and possession, so much controlling, so much policing, like monogamy extrapolated (primary, secondary,) instead of feeling infinite love for the universe and all of its pain, all of its separation, all of its grief,
Tuesday night, feeling the grief,
labeling the grief
am I finally ready to disappear? ready to let everybody else disappear, the transition anxiety is ...
sure, I can think now that I'm solving the riddle of the transition anxiety, but then come Friday, I'll still feel it,
but I've labeled it, which makes it easier to cope, I've given it a name, and I can wait until it goes away,
because everything goes away
goodbye subreddits, you're just not fun anymore