charisma was my defense mechanism
This memoir is so detailed, would I be able to write about my childhood with such detail? But it provokes so many memories of my own childhood now,
so much life experienced buried within my bones within my cortex within my soul,
as a kid I actually read a hardcover book from my Dad's library about how to get along with people, how to make friends, and then I systematically followed its suggestions, and then made friends, "Bug has changed!" they all said. I went on dates and went to the school dances, I got a cool haircut and bought clothes at the mall, I had groups of friends over to my house, I fell in love with my best friend, so in love with my best friend, my straight best friend, who occasionally tied me up and tormented me, damn him,
Changed so much I went out for the football team, became Jock Bug, as I wrote before 155 pounds of pure muscle and bruises, heh, I was hot, smart, and friendly, but fucking gay
I book-learned charisma to defend myself from the bullies, that was my defense mechanism,
so much life experienced buried within my bones within my cortex within my soul,
as a kid I actually read a hardcover book from my Dad's library about how to get along with people, how to make friends, and then I systematically followed its suggestions, and then made friends, "Bug has changed!" they all said. I went on dates and went to the school dances, I got a cool haircut and bought clothes at the mall, I had groups of friends over to my house, I fell in love with my best friend, so in love with my best friend, my straight best friend, who occasionally tied me up and tormented me, damn him,
Changed so much I went out for the football team, became Jock Bug, as I wrote before 155 pounds of pure muscle and bruises, heh, I was hot, smart, and friendly, but fucking gay
I book-learned charisma to defend myself from the bullies, that was my defense mechanism,