Jul 11, 2021 00:35
realizing now how important it was to T that I support his taking the NY job, yeah, I'm kicking you out of the nest, I've been trying to kick you out of the nest for a while now, sometimes we only become adults in our 50s, who took care of whom, we both did, you codependent, me co-co-dependent,
and the loss of Dax gives us more freedom, we loved him so much but he was a lot of work, he was a lot of work,
have I admitted this so openly? I ended up feeling I could not leave Dax, because he needed me. I can't leave any of these people or pets, because they need me. Instead I kick them out of the nest. While allowing them to return.
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taking two days off for mental health this week, when have I ever done that, I was needing, I was needy,
I was on the verge of being needy back on Monday, when T was returning to the house, and he knew this, he came home early in the day, he knew,
I need you, but I'm kicking you out of the nest, *KICK*
vacation