um ...
I came home early, I expected Tod to have left already, but he's still here. I'm not sure what the holdup is, he already said goodbye about 10 minutes ago.
Would really like my Time to Self now :-)
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OK, he's gone, Time to Self began 5pm! Warming up for butt toys now, of course.
I'm getting way back into my pre-Brandon cruising routine on the apps, except now my circumstances have fundamentally changed, in that I'm locked and not allowed to cum for any reason for at least the next month, unless Brandon quits the role he assumed three days after I met him. And just because he might give me the keys back in a month, doesn't mean he'll give up his role at that time, or that I'll be allowed to cum while I have the keys. I might only be allowed to unlock for the brief period I'm under medical examination -- unlock in the bathroom when I get there, relock in the bathroom before I leave. Who knows. My Silent Cock Lord hasn't thought that far ahead, heh.
He hasn't even responded to my plea to remain, yet. I never imagined I'd hand over the keys to somebody so ... intermittent and distant. But I'm not just rolling with it, I'm embracing it. I'm sure if I texted him with a safe word he'd meet me as soon as possible, but otherwise, I basically asked him to ignore me.
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Technically, I don't need to remove the cage for a physical, I could just man up and let my doc see it. The real issue is the annual CT scan of my kidneys. Having the metal of the lock down there would presumably scatter some of the X-rays and make the picture less precise.
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If I seem obsessed with my Silent Cock Lord situation in my journal right now, you should live inside my head. I can barely stop thinking about it at all. And I'm so fucking horny.
I never thought having Silent Bob as my key holder would be so fucking sexy ;-)
I'm not actually in control of this situation, although -- crucially, I'm consenting to it -- but my fantasy that I'd be locked up forever and never be allowed to cum is pretty much my life right now. When you haven't cum in a month, and it's a month until you'll even be unlocked for a short medical exam, you're pretty much locked up forever and never allowed to cum.
Sir Brandon did give me a goal, after which I'd be allowed to cum. But it's a pretty distant feat ... I'm not sure how I'm going to accomplish that by myself. I probably need to recruit help ... which is why I'm back on the apps and cruising cruising cruising like a crazy locked horny man.
Would really like my Time to Self now :-)
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OK, he's gone, Time to Self began 5pm! Warming up for butt toys now, of course.
I'm getting way back into my pre-Brandon cruising routine on the apps, except now my circumstances have fundamentally changed, in that I'm locked and not allowed to cum for any reason for at least the next month, unless Brandon quits the role he assumed three days after I met him. And just because he might give me the keys back in a month, doesn't mean he'll give up his role at that time, or that I'll be allowed to cum while I have the keys. I might only be allowed to unlock for the brief period I'm under medical examination -- unlock in the bathroom when I get there, relock in the bathroom before I leave. Who knows. My Silent Cock Lord hasn't thought that far ahead, heh.
He hasn't even responded to my plea to remain, yet. I never imagined I'd hand over the keys to somebody so ... intermittent and distant. But I'm not just rolling with it, I'm embracing it. I'm sure if I texted him with a safe word he'd meet me as soon as possible, but otherwise, I basically asked him to ignore me.
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Technically, I don't need to remove the cage for a physical, I could just man up and let my doc see it. The real issue is the annual CT scan of my kidneys. Having the metal of the lock down there would presumably scatter some of the X-rays and make the picture less precise.
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If I seem obsessed with my Silent Cock Lord situation in my journal right now, you should live inside my head. I can barely stop thinking about it at all. And I'm so fucking horny.
I never thought having Silent Bob as my key holder would be so fucking sexy ;-)
I'm not actually in control of this situation, although -- crucially, I'm consenting to it -- but my fantasy that I'd be locked up forever and never be allowed to cum is pretty much my life right now. When you haven't cum in a month, and it's a month until you'll even be unlocked for a short medical exam, you're pretty much locked up forever and never allowed to cum.
Sir Brandon did give me a goal, after which I'd be allowed to cum. But it's a pretty distant feat ... I'm not sure how I'm going to accomplish that by myself. I probably need to recruit help ... which is why I'm back on the apps and cruising cruising cruising like a crazy locked horny man.