really now?
so im still kind of sick but getting better and tonight at midnight was caitlin's 21st birthday. i decided to be nice and take her out since im not going to SLO tomorrow and we went to outlaws (sketch bar in camarillo, where i guess millions of kids from cam high hang out now) and we get in the bar and she has two shots waiting for her. downs them and chills for a while. soon after she decides she wants to sing karaoke so we go to the lady and pick out her song. which i made EXTREMELY clear to her that i wasn't going to sing. so she starts writing my name on the slip anyway. so heres the conversations:
Cait: what song are we going to sing?????? (as she's writing caitlin and kati on the paper)
Kati: cait, im not going to sing remember. i cant!
Cait: what? you're really being a huge bitch right now (as she proceeds to stab me in the hand with the pencil)
Kati: im being a bitch? what the fuck? how?
Cait: because you won't sing with me, its my birthday, sing with me.
Kati: cait, i can't even talk im sick.
Cait: oh yeah... oops.
Kati: i can't believe you just called me a bitch and now my hand is bleeding
Cait: well im sorry, ugh what song should i sing????
so needless to say i got really upset about this. i feel like she wasn't drunk and if she was then she's a pussy drinker. but really, really?? i mean come on. really? i guess i feel like an idiot for being upset but i could have just played the sick card and chilled at home. AND not to mention she didnt even ask if i could or would drive her to the bar, which is the second time this week that she volunteered me for something i didnt want to do. then proceeds to say "well we're even for annoying car rides, remember your birthday?" ok now im offended. fuck.. whatever. im not going to SLO tomorrow and she's going to have to get over it since i told her i would let her know in the morning. a weekend without her. im just rambling and i feel like im being mean maybe. but all in all, i just feel like shit. she let me down and i dont know what expectations i had for her. but i just did not enjoy the situation. and now i have an awkward cut in my hand.
tomorrow im seeing my friends. i miss you. hang out with me. i love you too.
Cait: what song are we going to sing?????? (as she's writing caitlin and kati on the paper)
Kati: cait, im not going to sing remember. i cant!
Cait: what? you're really being a huge bitch right now (as she proceeds to stab me in the hand with the pencil)
Kati: im being a bitch? what the fuck? how?
Cait: because you won't sing with me, its my birthday, sing with me.
Kati: cait, i can't even talk im sick.
Cait: oh yeah... oops.
Kati: i can't believe you just called me a bitch and now my hand is bleeding
Cait: well im sorry, ugh what song should i sing????
so needless to say i got really upset about this. i feel like she wasn't drunk and if she was then she's a pussy drinker. but really, really?? i mean come on. really? i guess i feel like an idiot for being upset but i could have just played the sick card and chilled at home. AND not to mention she didnt even ask if i could or would drive her to the bar, which is the second time this week that she volunteered me for something i didnt want to do. then proceeds to say "well we're even for annoying car rides, remember your birthday?" ok now im offended. fuck.. whatever. im not going to SLO tomorrow and she's going to have to get over it since i told her i would let her know in the morning. a weekend without her. im just rambling and i feel like im being mean maybe. but all in all, i just feel like shit. she let me down and i dont know what expectations i had for her. but i just did not enjoy the situation. and now i have an awkward cut in my hand.
tomorrow im seeing my friends. i miss you. hang out with me. i love you too.