Lost it
Last night me and Pads were talking on Skype and he was being silly. Last night I just wanted him to talk to me. Our texts lately are getting dumb. The emojis on freaking Facebook messenger are pissing me off because he thinks he can send one and I'll be OK. Urgh. I'm not OK.
His phone has even messed up for over a month now and I miss using kik. With kik he had more to offer in conversation.
Back to last night. We were talking. He was acting a butt. Usually it's cute but last night I told him. Babe...be nice to me...babe...stop I want u to talk. He kinda got upset, and said about what? I said anything something dumb even. Then he said like your face and smiled. I told him, I just want you to be nice. Then I lost it. I started to cry. I closed my laptop but not enough to shit it off. I couldn't let him see me cry.
I don't think he understands why I was crying.
My laptop shit off. I texted him to give me a minute. I loaded up Skype again and he said "what were you doing?" I said nothing still unable to look at him. He knew. I told him to pick a subject. I couldnt think for 5 minutes so out convo went to nothing. After a while he got on a subject and I was OK. I still felt like shit.
I feel like shit today. I just want to cry.
I want him here. I'm emotionally and sexually frustrated. To the extreme!
His phone has even messed up for over a month now and I miss using kik. With kik he had more to offer in conversation.
Back to last night. We were talking. He was acting a butt. Usually it's cute but last night I told him. Babe...be nice to me...babe...stop I want u to talk. He kinda got upset, and said about what? I said anything something dumb even. Then he said like your face and smiled. I told him, I just want you to be nice. Then I lost it. I started to cry. I closed my laptop but not enough to shit it off. I couldn't let him see me cry.
I don't think he understands why I was crying.
My laptop shit off. I texted him to give me a minute. I loaded up Skype again and he said "what were you doing?" I said nothing still unable to look at him. He knew. I told him to pick a subject. I couldnt think for 5 minutes so out convo went to nothing. After a while he got on a subject and I was OK. I still felt like shit.
I feel like shit today. I just want to cry.
I want him here. I'm emotionally and sexually frustrated. To the extreme!