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I have been thinking a lot about my life and how I got here - aka the phases I went through to achieve the persona I now identify myself with. I realized that I'm fucking glad that I never stuck with any specific "group" because thinking about it now, they were all fucking wrong. WRONG WRONG WRONG.
I think about my 'punk rock' days. I never could quite capture the adequate amount of social angst, nor the musical inclination that made the punk rock scene thrive. Or perhaps my 'scene' days. All that left me was fried hair from too many bad dye jobs, and a low self esteem because I could never be quite as popular or as pretty as the famous Myspace girls, such as Dani Dementia (I think that's one?) or perhaps more familiar territory, Jeffree Star. I really tried hard. Then I think about my last true attempt at belonging to a certain crowd, and that was when I decided to go "indie rock". Thank you very fucking much, I learned how I knew absolutely nothing about music. I couldn't be as weird, or as intuned to the new up-and-coming radical bands that were hitting the mainstage. I couldn't always present myself at shows, and couldn't quite understand the universal language of indie... or couldn't quite decipher the screaming that took place in their lyrics.
Thank god I am who I am today. I associate myself to no scene. I live my life, I am happy, and that is all that matters. Then again, I'm sure that socially, people associate myself to some type of group and I can guess exactly what that may be. I'm sure that everyone who doesn't actually know me or my friends puts us in the group of "stoners, druggies, and hard partiers." I'm not going to lie, I smoke weed, I've dabbled in my fair share of substances, and yes, I do love to partay. But does that make me a bad person? Nope. If everyone just took the time to get to know each other maybe we all wouldn't be classified into meaningless cliques just because that's all the outside shows. And hey, I'm a fucking hypocrit too because I don't follow that guideline at all either, I judge people by their appearance, by their actions. But today I stop, and today I make a change, because that's all WE as the humans of this earth can do; CHANGE. CHANGE the way we view our brothers and sisters. Maybe we'd all be happier. Maybe there would be no more humans who feel that they have to starve themselves so they can finally feel pretty. That's all outside bullshit. Everyone is beautiful. The earth is beautiful. Life is beautiful. Maybe if we all just slowed the fuck down and realized that we all live here, we all cross each other's paths every day and don't even give a sideways glance to that person sitting next to us on the bus. Or driving next to us on the freeway. NO ONE CARES. And people wonder why our earth is falling to peices. Or why there is always war. There are too many humans in this world who could quite frankly care less about anyone but themselves. Maybe if we all started thinking about others for a change, and not just ourselves, or our "scene", then maybe we could all just fucking get along. I'm sick of fighting, backstabbing, and gameplaying.
It's a natural occurence for humans to be corrupt. But not every one of us has to. My biggest wish for our planet is that one day we could all just get along. I know I sound like a usual "hippie" blahblahblah but there goes judgement and all I have written throughout this entire rant has become pointless.
My name is Haley, I am a 17 year old girl living in Santa Rosa, California, I experience life, drive a car, go to school, and have no idea what I'm doing after graduation. I am just like every other teenager on this earth.
I think about my 'punk rock' days. I never could quite capture the adequate amount of social angst, nor the musical inclination that made the punk rock scene thrive. Or perhaps my 'scene' days. All that left me was fried hair from too many bad dye jobs, and a low self esteem because I could never be quite as popular or as pretty as the famous Myspace girls, such as Dani Dementia (I think that's one?) or perhaps more familiar territory, Jeffree Star. I really tried hard. Then I think about my last true attempt at belonging to a certain crowd, and that was when I decided to go "indie rock". Thank you very fucking much, I learned how I knew absolutely nothing about music. I couldn't be as weird, or as intuned to the new up-and-coming radical bands that were hitting the mainstage. I couldn't always present myself at shows, and couldn't quite understand the universal language of indie... or couldn't quite decipher the screaming that took place in their lyrics.
Thank god I am who I am today. I associate myself to no scene. I live my life, I am happy, and that is all that matters. Then again, I'm sure that socially, people associate myself to some type of group and I can guess exactly what that may be. I'm sure that everyone who doesn't actually know me or my friends puts us in the group of "stoners, druggies, and hard partiers." I'm not going to lie, I smoke weed, I've dabbled in my fair share of substances, and yes, I do love to partay. But does that make me a bad person? Nope. If everyone just took the time to get to know each other maybe we all wouldn't be classified into meaningless cliques just because that's all the outside shows. And hey, I'm a fucking hypocrit too because I don't follow that guideline at all either, I judge people by their appearance, by their actions. But today I stop, and today I make a change, because that's all WE as the humans of this earth can do; CHANGE. CHANGE the way we view our brothers and sisters. Maybe we'd all be happier. Maybe there would be no more humans who feel that they have to starve themselves so they can finally feel pretty. That's all outside bullshit. Everyone is beautiful. The earth is beautiful. Life is beautiful. Maybe if we all just slowed the fuck down and realized that we all live here, we all cross each other's paths every day and don't even give a sideways glance to that person sitting next to us on the bus. Or driving next to us on the freeway. NO ONE CARES. And people wonder why our earth is falling to peices. Or why there is always war. There are too many humans in this world who could quite frankly care less about anyone but themselves. Maybe if we all started thinking about others for a change, and not just ourselves, or our "scene", then maybe we could all just fucking get along. I'm sick of fighting, backstabbing, and gameplaying.
It's a natural occurence for humans to be corrupt. But not every one of us has to. My biggest wish for our planet is that one day we could all just get along. I know I sound like a usual "hippie" blahblahblah but there goes judgement and all I have written throughout this entire rant has become pointless.
My name is Haley, I am a 17 year old girl living in Santa Rosa, California, I experience life, drive a car, go to school, and have no idea what I'm doing after graduation. I am just like every other teenager on this earth.