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[kanoa]

it seems i rarely update anymore. unmotivated? possibly..or maybe there's just not much to tell about my dull and routine of a life.. i had a good weekend last week to start off. i got to see heather thursday which made me very happy..worked friday night, worked a double on saturday..worked sunday afternoon..but..was visited by rebecca and brooke sunday and monday which was a visit i needed so badly. i miss my roommate. i miss just having a good friend to talk to in person when i need one. i miss having someone being able to see me cry or sad when i want to act that way. so all in all, it was a short but sweet visit. i cooked out with heather, philip, and the markums for the 4th of july then went to the edwards house that evening. i was sad to be away from my family for the first time on the 4th. it's not really the same without a cookout at the grandparents, a game of croquet, fireworks, then a game of cards to finish off the night. and now, i am counting down the next 2 weeks until i can give my brain a 3 week vacation from academics, visit old friends, sleep in my own bed, visit family, get irritated at my dog, and escape the hauntings of unnamed individuals. this week has been hectic but bearable. i will never understand the concept of letting someone go, but not bearing the consequence of letting them move on. countless unanswered phone calls, numerous unresponded-to text messages..let me go. maybe next week will be a better one. one where school will be ok, work will supply good money, and i will not have to avoid a distant memory. i can still love..but move on..

only if u let me go though.
so let me go..

tomorrow, i work a double..10-8ish. please let tomorrow be a good day where my customers will be generous with their tips. :)