[That. That was one of the most intense experience Tyki had had since getting here, all of a day ago, admittedly, but it was uncomfortably real. For one, he was starting to question his whole presupposition that this place and its people were some illusion or trick.]
[But of rather more immediate importance was the arousal and disgust he was feeling. He hadn't know it was possible to feel both at once. He hadn't particularly wanted to find that out. Tyki was a hedonist, truly, but there were some things he could not find it in himself to be interested in. Men, at least for sex, were one. What was worse, a part of him, that dark part, Joyd, had no problem with the dream, with the aftermath of taste and sensation in his mouth, he could swear he could still feel the texture
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[Video|Private}tenpa_tantrumMay 11 2010, 14:35:53 UTC
[He has no concept how to deal with it. His own dreams... his own dreams are nothing like this. Not the most intense of them, not any of the romantic childish dreams he's had about his partner over the years. Always only his partner, until he came to Kannagara and everything turned upside down.
Gau is upside down now, metaphorically and otherwise, jumbled around and peering at the Hitomi with his chin somewhere near the top of the picture and his wide green eyes near the bottom. Eyes with heat in them. And somewhere in between the are lips that are parted, nearly gasping for breath, the corners pulled half-down in confusion.]
Is that... is that really what it feels like? I... think it's almost... scary.
[Video | Private ]ura_no_uraMay 12 2010, 12:20:05 UTC
[ Ah, this boy. The one who had very vanilla dreams. Isn't he a little too young to be watching dreams like this...? Too young to be -- oh fuck. Obito. Obito is going to see this. Obito is going to somehow come across this and watch this and see Kakashi doing these things and this isn't even something that Kakashi had thought of until this moment. With this boy looking at him with an expression that is --
not want he wants to see on Obito. Who is thirteen. Who is going to see this. Who is going to --
Kakashi is going to have to do something about this. Perhaps he should genjutsu him. Put him to sleep all day. Yes. That is a good idea. That is probably the better thing to do. Kakashi will respond to this kid, then find Obito and genjutsu him.
... or something.
Kakashi's expression is rather impassive when he responds. ]
That's probably because you're not old enough for it.
Re: [Video | Private ]tenpa_tantrumMay 12 2010, 13:18:51 UTC
[That's not true. That is most definitely not true. When he'd gone to school, Gau had been almost the only boy in his class who hadn't done these things yet.
That had been a hard thing to defend himself from, the teasing. Didn't have a girlfriend. Didn't want one. And the couple of attempts he'd finally made with boys...
How does one explain still being in love with a dead man?
Things were different here. And this man was a stranger.]
I'm plenty old enough. I'm just... careful. Picky.
[ reaction 2/2 ]sakurabitoMay 11 2010, 17:20:53 UTC
[ Being alive... what is it to live? He can't live again. He can't slip into something as pointless as loving someone as he loved her because how many times has he stood and watched someone walk away from his life? Mother. Father. Yoruichi, Urahara and so many captains and vice captains his grandfather knew. His grandfather himself. His beloved Hisana. Everything he's placed such trust in, everything he's allowed himself to grow some attachment to, even if it was simply great dislike, has walked away and left him wondering.
He cannot afford to stray and he hates Kakashi for this. He hates him for making him stop and think and feel these things, make him see himself with such an expression because he doesn't want to feel, doesn't need these things.
And it lingers with these churning thoughts that don't make sense, that don't belong because what does any of this have to do with the dream, yet he can't seem to get rid of
( ... )
[It takes him a while, but he can't tell how long its been. It feels like an eternity, yet it feels like only a short moment ago he was sitting here contemplating the death of the Hitomi. It's still there, kill it and the problem is solved, but he's managed to control himself.
He's not a child. That behavior is inappropriate. His control... he must have his control back. He's not human. He has no room for humanity. Kakashi doesn't know what he's talking about.]
Hatake Kakashi.
[It's voice because he knows he's a mess. He knows he's not ready to make an appearance, to glare at him. He's not even sure the sound of his voice is regulated enough to avoid detection. He still has a problem, slowly subsiding, but will power isn't enough, not after such neglect.
hasn't been long enoughBut it doesn't matter. If he walks away now, Kakashi will think he's won. Never. He'll never admit defeat. Not to Hatake Kakashi
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[Voice | Private]ura_no_uraMay 13 2010, 10:56:18 UTC
[ It is quite some time later, that Kakashi finally gets around to looking at all the messages he received. He was expecting this one, though, and Byakuya's reaction to it, it's just about what he expected. The man likes to speak in threats and demands, and this is no different from any other time that they've spoken.
It's a little funny, really, how Kakashi's mind sometimes works. It does the strangest things, like make him dream of a man who frustrates him as much he intrigues him, a man whom he's quite certain is probably extremely humiliated and embarrassed at the moment. It's not every day a stranger dreams about you in such a compromising position. Fantasizing about a thing that would never happen
( ... )
[Reaction] 1/2dramatic_capeMay 12 2010, 02:49:22 UTC
[ When Lelouch first opens this - just because it's Kakashi, and he owes him back for that conversation on his dream - it makes sense to him. Lelouch doesn't like Byakuya. He's known nobles who are practically the spitting image of the man - that universal expression, one of disgust. Disdain. How dare these people exist, and infringe on my right to take, and take, and take.
But -
The rush, the hot heavy desire and the heat and the sense of it rushes into him, and Lelouch drops the Hitomi, clattering away on the floor, in shock. Breathes for a moment, hands over his mouth. God. That was close. That was way too close. That was too much like wanting that (and a shudder of his own disgust runs down his spine, cold and counteracting the heat that has risen under his skin in response).
Lelouch walks over to where the Hitomi is. He's not going to touch it. He's just going to watch. If there's anything he should see. (He owes Kakashi back for that, after all.) Because this dream does, in its own way, speak to him.
[Reaction | Accidental Video]searedsuccessorMay 12 2010, 04:35:30 UTC
[Oh. Fuck, no.
Mello shifts, his finger brushing against the screen as he curls his knees up to his chest in some vain attempt to conceal the fact that whatever he just witnessed messed him up. Badly. He's still staring at the Hitomi, nearly wide-eyed, and wondering if he's going to have to put up with this shit every time someone sleeps. And worse, he's thinking on his own dreams, how they've been more than fucked up since the explosion, how it's possible that every goddamn person here is going to see every part of him that he'd rather no one see.
No. He can't have L see that, and he definitely can't have fucking Yagami witnessing anything. What if he dreams of someone from back at the House? What if he inadvertently gives Kira the means to associate his own name with his face?
But shit. Shit. He can't not sleep. He can try, but even with his will, he knows that his body will give out eventually and then
( ... )
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[But of rather more immediate importance was the arousal and disgust he was feeling. He hadn't know it was possible to feel both at once. He hadn't particularly wanted to find that out. Tyki was a hedonist, truly, but there were some things he could not find it in himself to be interested in. Men, at least for sex, were one. What was worse, a part of him, that dark part, Joyd, had no problem with the dream, with the aftermath of taste and sensation in his mouth, he could swear he could still feel the texture ( ... )
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Gau is upside down now, metaphorically and otherwise, jumbled around and peering at the Hitomi with his chin somewhere near the top of the picture and his wide green eyes near the bottom. Eyes with heat in them. And somewhere in between the are lips that are parted, nearly gasping for breath, the corners pulled half-down in confusion.]
Is that... is that really what it feels like? I... think it's almost... scary.
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not want he wants to see on Obito. Who is thirteen. Who is going to see this. Who is going to --
Kakashi is going to have to do something about this. Perhaps he should genjutsu him. Put him to sleep all day. Yes. That is a good idea. That is probably the better thing to do. Kakashi will respond to this kid, then find Obito and genjutsu him.
... or something.
Kakashi's expression is rather impassive when he responds. ]
That's probably because you're not old enough for it.
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That had been a hard thing to defend himself from, the teasing. Didn't have a girlfriend. Didn't want one. And the couple of attempts he'd finally made with boys...
How does one explain still being in love with a dead man?
Things were different here. And this man was a stranger.]
I'm plenty old enough. I'm just... careful. Picky.
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How old are you, anyway?
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What is this ( ... )
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He cannot afford to stray and he hates Kakashi for this. He hates him for making him stop and think and feel these things, make him see himself with such an expression because he doesn't want to feel, doesn't need these things.
And it lingers with these churning thoughts that don't make sense, that don't belong because what does any of this have to do with the dream, yet he can't seem to get rid of ( ... )
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He's not a child. That behavior is inappropriate. His control... he must have his control back. He's not human. He has no room for humanity. Kakashi doesn't know what he's talking about.]
Hatake Kakashi.
[It's voice because he knows he's a mess. He knows he's not ready to make an appearance, to glare at him. He's not even sure the sound of his voice is regulated enough to avoid detection. He still has a problem, slowly subsiding, but will power isn't enough, not after such neglect.
hasn't been long enoughBut it doesn't matter. If he walks away now, Kakashi will think he's won. Never. He'll never admit defeat. Not to Hatake Kakashi ( ... )
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It's a little funny, really, how Kakashi's mind sometimes works. It does the strangest things, like make him dream of a man who frustrates him as much he intrigues him, a man whom he's quite certain is probably extremely humiliated and embarrassed at the moment. It's not every day a stranger dreams about you in such a compromising position. Fantasizing about a thing that would never happen ( ... )
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But -
The rush, the hot heavy desire and the heat and the sense of it rushes into him, and Lelouch drops the Hitomi, clattering away on the floor, in shock. Breathes for a moment, hands over his mouth. God. That was close. That was way too close. That was too much like wanting that (and a shudder of his own disgust runs down his spine, cold and counteracting the heat that has risen under his skin in response).
Lelouch walks over to where the Hitomi is. He's not going to touch it. He's just going to watch. If there's anything he should see. (He owes Kakashi back for that, after all.) Because this dream does, in its own way, speak to him.
(This, she ( ... )
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I'm surprised you can stand the man.
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Mello shifts, his finger brushing against the screen as he curls his knees up to his chest in some vain attempt to conceal the fact that whatever he just witnessed messed him up. Badly. He's still staring at the Hitomi, nearly wide-eyed, and wondering if he's going to have to put up with this shit every time someone sleeps. And worse, he's thinking on his own dreams, how they've been more than fucked up since the explosion, how it's possible that every goddamn person here is going to see every part of him that he'd rather no one see.
No. He can't have L see that, and he definitely can't have fucking Yagami witnessing anything. What if he dreams of someone from back at the House? What if he inadvertently gives Kira the means to associate his own name with his face?
But shit. Shit. He can't not sleep. He can try, but even with his will, he knows that his body will give out eventually and then ( ... )
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