The dream gives him some weird feeling of nostalgia. He's not fully sure what to make of it, aside from knowing he doesn't like it. But... it's also something he knows more from present, from all kinds of moments where he hasn't actually really been alone, just... felt like it.
But this is a kind of fear he can recognise, too. Not necessarily being here, but just... being left.
And he can't even say it's a stupid fear, but...]
The chances of all of us disappearing at once I think is rather slim...
[video | private]mightstealyrcarDecember 15 2011, 03:12:31 UTC
And horribly awkward.
[But Matt's half-smiling. At fifteen, Mello still wears his heart on his sleeve, a lot more than he did later on. Matt can see him trying to rein it in and be tough, sometimes, and it's interesting.]
The dream gives him some weird feeling of nostalgia. He's not fully sure what to make of it, aside from knowing he doesn't like it. But... it's also something he knows more from present, from all kinds of moments where he hasn't actually really been alone, just... felt like it.
But this is a kind of fear he can recognise, too. Not necessarily being here, but just... being left.
And he can't even say it's a stupid fear, but...]
The chances of all of us disappearing at once I think is rather slim...
[That much, he can give, he thinks.]
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[He's smoking again (or still).]
Doesn't exactly take a degree in psych to know what that one meant. I'm a little disappointed in my subconscious for being so unsubtle.
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The subconscious tends t'do that for ya, here. It's annoying, yeah.
If only you could make irrational fears go away. There are quite a lot of more important things to worry about.
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Or the ones that're rational, but you can't do anything about.
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[Human mind. It sucks.]
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Think about other concerns. Got plenty of those to distract myself with.
[Aha. Ha. ha.]
Or go annoy someone, that's always fun.
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...okay that one's kinda specific.
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Who?
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[At least for a start.]
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[But Matt's half-smiling. At fifteen, Mello still wears his heart on his sleeve, a lot more than he did later on. Matt can see him trying to rein it in and be tough, sometimes, and it's interesting.]
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[Snicker. Well, he's most definitely only amused.]
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[It must be... quite weird indeed, after all, yes.]
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