[Voice | Private]a_for_tioriFebruary 23 2010, 12:36:36 UTC
[He knows nothing.
Kakashi was always telling them to look underneath the underneath in order to seek out the truth. But as usual, Kakashi is an idiot and a liar and a hypocrite and he knows nothing. Of course, Sasuke should have seen this coming - everyone lies and he shouldn't trust anyone, he should know that, he should - and he didn't trust Kakashi, he didn't but this was not the lie he was expecting
( ... )
[Video | Private]a_for_tioriFebruary 27 2010, 05:09:37 UTC
[No excuse. That's no excuse, because even if it's just a dream - even if it's just Kakashi's mind firing off randomly, even if it's just a random bunch of thoughts all tossed together in a way that makes no sense at all - it doesn't make sense, for Kakashi to be thinking about that, about having sex with him and now it is broadcast and everyone can see it and Sasuke can see it (he wonders vaguely what Itachi would think - would he be disgusted? Would he think that Sasuke really - no, he hasn't, it's not like that) and why the fuck would Kakashi -
But. But even if it's just a dream. Even so, he thinks that. Kakashi thinks those things. He pities Sasuke. That weird look he's always giving Sasuke - that is the look of Kakashi thinking about how pathetic he is. That is the look of Kakashi thinking that all his self-sufficiency, which he bled for, which he cut himself open and emptied himself out for, is a lie. Thinking that he is still weak, despite how badly he wanted to be strong. How hard he worked to be strong
( ... )
[Video | Private]ura_no_uraFebruary 27 2010, 06:55:26 UTC
[ But Kakashi doesn't even understand his own thoughts in this dream, so how can someone else understand them more? Know what it is like to be him, to have walked in his skin and felt the press of emotion that surges in his chest and tightens inextricably at the bite in Sasuke's tone? And underneath it all there is that nameless something Kakashi doesn't understand and doesn't know if he's ready to.
He looks at the anger burning there in Sasuke's eyes. At the sharp edge of his jaw and remembers the soft expression that had been there just two days ago, when Sasuke had wound his arms around him. The small smile that had eased across his mouth. ]
Sasuke...
[ He murmurs, and he's not sure what to say. He's not sure what Sasuke wants him to, either. ]
[Video | Private]a_for_tioriMarch 1 2010, 00:27:58 UTC
[What does he want? He's not sure. Perhaps for Kakashi to argue with him, so that Sasuke can hate him. Or for Kakashi to hang up. Or for Kakashi to agree. He doesn't know what he wants.
He never does, does he.]
I'm not going to change.
This anger won't just go away. I can't just let it go, and pretend it was never there. It doesn't matter how much pain it causes. It won't just cease to exist because you want it to.
This is who I am. I am a traitor. And a criminal. And I won't apologize for that, because I'm not fucking ashamed.
The person I am now - I won't just disappear because I'm inconvenient for you.
[Video | Private]a_for_tioriMarch 1 2010, 01:16:22 UTC
No.
Of course not.
Just that I should live happily, and not take any action to avenge them. Or if I did, I should give it some half-assed effort so as not to disturb the peace of our precious fucking team.
I should seek revenge quietly and meekly, so that the people who profited from those deaths wouldn't have to deal with whatever trouble I caused.
[Video | Private]ura_no_uraMarch 1 2010, 07:29:54 UTC
[ Even now, in this place, so far removed from their home, Sasuke's still hungry for revenge, for what Kakashi doesn't even know he can achieve if they stay trapped in this place. His eye darkens slightly as he studies Sasuke's image in the Hitomi. ]
How exactly do you plan on taking revenge when you're trapped in a place like this? And when you're done with your revenge, what will you do after? Will it make you happy?
Kakashi was always telling them to look underneath the underneath in order to seek out the truth. But as usual, Kakashi is an idiot and a liar and a hypocrite and he knows nothing. Of course, Sasuke should have seen this coming - everyone lies and he shouldn't trust anyone, he should know that, he should - and he didn't trust Kakashi, he didn't but this was not the lie he was expecting ( ... )
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But. But even if it's just a dream. Even so, he thinks that. Kakashi thinks those things. He pities Sasuke. That weird look he's always giving Sasuke - that is the look of Kakashi thinking about how pathetic he is. That is the look of Kakashi thinking that all his self-sufficiency, which he bled for, which he cut himself open and emptied himself out for, is a lie. Thinking that he is still weak, despite how badly he wanted to be strong. How hard he worked to be strong ( ... )
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He looks at the anger burning there in Sasuke's eyes. At the sharp edge of his jaw and remembers the soft expression that had been there just two days ago, when Sasuke had wound his arms around him. The small smile that had eased across his mouth. ]
Sasuke...
[ He murmurs, and he's not sure what to say. He's not sure what Sasuke wants him to, either. ]
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He never does, does he.]
I'm not going to change.
This anger won't just go away. I can't just let it go, and pretend it was never there. It doesn't matter how much pain it causes. It won't just cease to exist because you want it to.
This is who I am. I am a traitor. And a criminal. And I won't apologize for that, because I'm not fucking ashamed.
The person I am now - I won't just disappear because I'm inconvenient for you.
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Well, are you happy, Sasuke?
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If happiness requires me to forget the crimes that were committed against my clan, I would rather be unhappy.
That's my choice. You don't get a say in the matter.
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[ Kakashi was far more concerned about how much Sasuke's need for revenge consumed him. Though it doesn't seem to be the case now. ]
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Of course not.
Just that I should live happily, and not take any action to avenge them. Or if I did, I should give it some half-assed effort so as not to disturb the peace of our precious fucking team.
I should seek revenge quietly and meekly, so that the people who profited from those deaths wouldn't have to deal with whatever trouble I caused.
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How exactly do you plan on taking revenge when you're trapped in a place like this? And when you're done with your revenge, what will you do after? Will it make you happy?
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