[FANFIC] "Do You Love Me?" [onesided 2718; onesided 5927]
Alright, so I joined some communities today... prompt communities and the like. Something to help me write.
One of 'em was called
20loves. Now, 20loves has two prompt tables and stuff that I can choose a prompt from and write. So, obviously, when I looked through the prompts and found that I liked them, I did. So, I wrote the first one. ^///^
I was trying to tweak it a bit, and I didn't really realize I was writing KHR! fic, until I started envisioning Tsuna. So, uhh... *tempted to apologize profusely*
Title: Do You Love Me?
Author: kannachan27
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!
Pairing: Onesided 2718; onesided 5927
Wordcount: ~547
Written for: Table: 1 Prompt #: 1
Prompt: “Do you love me?” “No.” “I love you.” “I know.”
#27&&18#
“Do you love me?”
It was one of those days again. The days where my heart was racing and my stomach was nervous and I felt completely empty. I felt so close, so close to crying out, to screaming, to breaking, to doing all of those things that I promised that I would never do again.
I needed to know, needed to hear it again, I needed to make sure that it was true, that it wasn’t a lie, that--
“No.”
That he didn’t really love me, even though it would make me feel worse, make me want to curl up in a ball, never look at anyone again.
Because--
“I love you.”
And it’s true, it’s really true, but he can’t love me, and he can’t do anything if he wanted to, but he doesn’t want to love me anyway.
And my stomach doesn’t exist, and I almost feel like that girl with the patch over her eye, who doesn’t have any internal organs for some reason, I feel so strangely empty. And cold, always cold.
But he makes sure that I’m looking into his dark, dark eyes, and his fingers are colder than ice against my cheeks and I feel even more like a small animal under his burning gaze.
“I know.”
And suddenly Gokudera-kun’s there, telling Hibari-san to let me go, thinking that he would hurt me, pulling me away from Hibari-san and his warm gaze and cool fingers.
And Gokudera-kun’s hand is warm, burning, against my skin, and he comments on how cold I am and that maybe we should skip today, “It’s only office work, that baseball idiot can do it for you, anyway,” and brings me home.
He tucks me into bed and his lips are hot against my forehead and he whispers that he’ll be right back.
#59&&27#
He comes back later, tells me that I fell asleep right after he left the room. There’s a bowl on the table, it was warm chicken soup, something that he remembered someone making for him when he was sick. Now it’s cold.
Gokudera-kun tells me that I’ve got a fever, but I don’t believe that. My body’s not weak, this is normal. It’s just one of those days when I think that my heart’s breaking.
Gokudera-kun says something and then he’s wrapping his arms around me and trying to climb under the blankets at the same time. Says it’s because he’s warmer than me, and body heat would be more effective than chicken soup, anyway.
He presses close, and I can feel the badum badum of his heart against my back, and his hot lips whispering against the cold skin on my neck.
#59#&18#
I know what he’s asking me when I wake up. He thinks I’m still asleep, and I hope that he doesn’t want an answer.
The empty feeling’s still here, even if the cold’s gone. Gokudera-kun made my skin all warm.
All but the place where Hibari-san’s searing cold fingers had touched.
“Do you love me…?”
A place that would never be warm again, no matter how much heat.
My heart and my cheek, both are frozen by his touch.
“Do you love me?”
No.
And I don’t answer.
##END##
Only my second attempt at writing Gokudera and Tsuna, and I've written Hibari only a little bit more. My....third(?) Reborn! fic, and probably not in character at all... but... I still like the way this one came out.
I know my thoughts on it; I want to know yours!! ^_^
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