Fic-spam, part 3
You know, it seems like I'm finding everything lately. Or, at least, realizing that I didn't post this or that, or that I wanted to write something... And so I come to this realization:
I don't seem to have posted one of the fics that I was so happy with after I wrote it. ANYWHERE. It's not on LJ, but it's on my ffnet and on my dA... and yet, I could have sworn I posted it here. Thus, I shall do it now. (Sorry for the random fic-spam)
Title: Another Test
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!
Characters/Pairing: Gokudera, Tsuna
Summary: If I cannot protect you, would you think me a failure?
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"Tenth!" He turned towards me, a surprised look on his face, even as he smiled at me. Still, his smile, the fact that he’s smiling at me, it makes my heart skip a beat or two (or three), and makes my breath catch, somewhere between my throat and my chest.
And I can’t help but wonder how much longer I will be able to keep that smile on his face. How long until I slip, until I make one mistake, one little mistake and just like that, he’s gone forever? Never coming back?
If we meet again--there is no "when," because the Tenth is innocent and pure and wonderful and everything that I’m not, so as I go to hell for being hateful and stained in blood, he will go to the place that Rokudo Mukuro had not been to - the place that he would never be to - Heaven. If we meet again in the next life, I wonder if he will be able to smile at me like that again?
Would he forgive me, if I am not strong enough to save him?
He blushes and stammers a shy, "G-Gokudera-kun!", and his face flushes with color, but I cannot think that it’s because of me, even though I will bask in that smile, which feels warmer than the light of the sun in the sky, to me.
He smiles and I bask in it, and he’s looking away, red-faced and shy, and I’m wrapping my arm around him and talking excitedly in his ear; words that I don’t know, things that I don’t even remember, and I’m just happy that he hasn’t pulled away from me yet.
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That night’s another strange one, for him. Another one of the nights that he would rather not have happen, a night of fighting and blood and pain and creepy people who don’t stop smiling and want to kill me-him-us.
But for me, it’s another test. The kind that I can’t pass by logic, that I can’t pass by thinking ahead and planning and not giving it my all.
It’s another chance to prove myself. To prove my worth.
I almost had the guy, so close, so close, and I didn’t care that I was almost dead, all because I had him right there. Just a little more and--
"Gokudera-kun!"
And the Tenth’s calling my name and telling me that he doesn’t care about the Rings, that he wants to have snowball fights and watch fireworks together with everyone and that can’t happen if you’re not there! but I’m so close so close so close and if I can get his Half of the Ring and get out alive, then I will have done it right. I will have done something to protect him and to make him proud of me, because if I don’t win this, then there’s one more strike against us, one more chance that he will have to fight and get hurt and be tainted and stained and in pain and I won’t be able to help him because--
But he’s telling me to leave and he’ll be even more hurt if I stay here and die here. Much more hurt than if I were to give up the Ring and escape and still be alive so I can see the fireworks and have snowball fights with him and them, but mostly him because I don’t care about them, but Tsuna does, and that’s why he’ll make a much better Tenth Generation Boss than anyone else.
So when I throw myself down in front of him and apologize to him, I mean it from my heart, because I wanted to protect him but I lost again, and--
Does he think me a failure?
Because it’s always Yamamoto-Dino-Hibari-Turf-head, everyone-but-me who manages to protect him, does he think that I am not strong enough, not worthy enough of being his Right Hand Man?
If I cannot protect you, my most important person, will you think me a failure?
But he’s smiling and looks like he would be clinging to me if I wasn’t injured and if I wasn’t me, if I wasn’t a boy named Gokudera Hayato, Smokin’ Bomb Hayato, the Bomb Brat, the wannabe Right Hand Man of the future Vongola Family Tenth Generation Mafia Boss.
So I said, "I want to see the fireworks too," and try to quell the storm that’s raging inside of me.
The thoughts of I’m a failure; I can’t protect you; What do you think of me now? and I’m not worthy.
I try to smile and be what he wants, but…
If I am unable to protect you, will you think me a failure?
I just failed the only test that matters.
-End-
And, there's another one. I wrote it for a 1827_is_love contest wayyy back. I figured I'd share it here, anyway. <3
Title: Hiding
Pairing: 1827
Prompt: Hide and Seek, First Date
Rating: K
Warning: Abundance of fluff. Hide and seek. Haru-interruptions.
Hiding. It was what he had to do, more and more often.
When you cannot fight the predator, and you want to live, you must run and hide. Otherwise, you would become the predator’s next meal.
All the prey know that, even Tsuna. He’s known that his entire life, and has always ran away from anyone who wanted to make him their prey, avoiding them and avoiding conflict. Now he’s grown and he knows how to protect himself, and he has friends who will protect him.
But not against this predator. Not Hibari, who could easily "bite him to death." Not Hibari, no. He was someone who everybody ran from; unless you were foolish enough to think that you could beat this leader of the Discipline Committee, or you were not afraid of him, which could be more foolish than thinking you could beat him.
A twig cracked from behind him and Tsuna gulped, readying himself to run, his heart pounding and his hands sweating and hurting from being clenched into fists for so long.
Footsteps were heard from behind him, then, and Tsuna bolted. He ran as fast as he could. Tripping over his feet, trying to reach the "safe point." Trying not to get caught.
The Sakura tree was right in front of him, he was so close to it now. He closed his eyes tightly and stretched out his arm to touch the trunk.
A large hand closed around his wrist tightly, the long fingers biting into his flesh. Tsuna opened his eyes, gasping. "H-Hibari-san!" he exclaimed. It was quickly followed by Tsuna’s cries of pain as Hibari’s grip tightened. "H-Hibari-san…!" Tsuna breathed out, "I-It hurts…"
"Hmph," Hibari muttered, letting go of Tsuna’s wrist and surveying the area, his eyes landing on something behind Tsuna. "What a pity," he said, leaning against the trunk of the tree, "If I hadn’t been here, you would have made it."
"Huh?" Tsuna blinked, "But weren’t you--"
"Tsuna-san! Tsuna-san! I almost… caught you!" Haru panted, stopping next to Tsuna and leaning on her knees, trying to breathe.
"Eh? Haru?"
Haru nodded. "I was… right behind you…" she said, between gasps. "I was walking by and you were right there, so I decided I’d say hi, but you got up and ran away!" She blushed. "Tsuna-san runs so fast!" she said dreamily, "I could barely keep up!"
"Ah… well, Haru…" Tsuna glanced at Hibari nervously before continuing, "We’ve…umm… got to get going, so…"
"Hahi? Already?"
Tsuna nodded quickly, apologizing. "But… weren’t you going somewhere?"
Surprised, Haru checked her watch. "Hahi! I’m going to be late! Bye, Tsuna-san!" Haru yelled over her shoulder as she ran back in the direction that she had come from.
Tsuna sighed and looked at Hibari. He was scowling. Tsuna smiled nervously, "A-ano, Hibari-san?" Hibari glanced at him and he blushed, "Wh-what’s wrong?"
Hibari smirked viciously, "I’ve just caught my prey; there’s no way that I’m going to let anyone else have him."
"H-Hibari-san--?!"
Hibari leaned down and kissed Tsuna, interrupting the question. "You talk too much," Hibari said, walking away.
Tsuna, blushing brightly, stood there for a moment before calling after Hibari. Hibari didn’t answer, leaving Tsuna to chase after him.
Tsuna caught up quickly, grasping Hibari’s arm shyly, afraid that he would be hurt, and too embarrassed to look at Hibari and see his reaction.
"Th-Thank you…" Tsuna whispered, staring at his feet as they walked.
"Hm?" Hibari glanced at Tsuna.
"W-well…" Tsuna’s face turned redder, "Th-this was my first date, s-so…" Tsuna turned his eyes to meet Hibari’s for the briefest of moments before glancing away again, tightening his hold on Hibari’s arm. "Th-thank you…"
And it was the best first date that either of them had ever had.
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And with this posted, I think I may be able to finalize my fanfic archive and post it in a little while (for my use as well as yours, orz) ... It took forever to find all my fanfics on this journal. And, as stated above, a lot of them barely even made it. I think I've got it mostly under control now, so I'll just quickly add in this link and post it. I hope.