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Today I was accused of having narcissistic personality disorder. Thank you Wikipedia for reminding me of all the things I failed to learn as a Psychology major. Let's take a look at the possibilities:
A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1. has a grandiose sense of self-importance
2. is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
3. believes that he or she is "special" and unique
4. requires excessive admiration
5. has a sense of entitlement
6. is interpersonally exploitative
7. lacks empathy
8. is often envious of others or believes others are envious of him or her
9. shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes
Hmm. As I look at this list I realize...no. I really don't have this disorder. I'm actually kind of offended (only kind of, as I don't actually get offended). I have little to know self-worth so that knocks 1, 3, 5, and 9 right outta the park. 2 is nice, but hey, who doesn't wish they're life were better? 4 is an odd one because how do you go about "requiring" admiration. You either have it, or you don't. I like to think I'm a nice person...so 6 is just plain false. As for 7, yes, I do lack empathy. I lack it because I choose to for those who don't deserve it. For my friends, for my family, I have all the empathy in the world. Usually. It's a personal choice, but I get overwhelmed if I just let every passing person effect me - and they will. 8 would have been true a few years ago, but I quit caring.
So to summarize, no. I really don't have this disorder. So fuck you. If we want to discuss disorders I might have, well, let's wander over to Borderline personality disorder. It's all issues of control though and there is something THERE to the madness. There is an ECHO and I can't be held responsible for wanting to touch it, for feeling apart of something else, for melting into a moment and wanting to keep it.
A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1. has a grandiose sense of self-importance
2. is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
3. believes that he or she is "special" and unique
4. requires excessive admiration
5. has a sense of entitlement
6. is interpersonally exploitative
7. lacks empathy
8. is often envious of others or believes others are envious of him or her
9. shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes
Hmm. As I look at this list I realize...no. I really don't have this disorder. I'm actually kind of offended (only kind of, as I don't actually get offended). I have little to know self-worth so that knocks 1, 3, 5, and 9 right outta the park. 2 is nice, but hey, who doesn't wish they're life were better? 4 is an odd one because how do you go about "requiring" admiration. You either have it, or you don't. I like to think I'm a nice person...so 6 is just plain false. As for 7, yes, I do lack empathy. I lack it because I choose to for those who don't deserve it. For my friends, for my family, I have all the empathy in the world. Usually. It's a personal choice, but I get overwhelmed if I just let every passing person effect me - and they will. 8 would have been true a few years ago, but I quit caring.
So to summarize, no. I really don't have this disorder. So fuck you. If we want to discuss disorders I might have, well, let's wander over to Borderline personality disorder. It's all issues of control though and there is something THERE to the madness. There is an ECHO and I can't be held responsible for wanting to touch it, for feeling apart of something else, for melting into a moment and wanting to keep it.