The State of my Plate
Lots of things to do lots of things to do...
I feel like I ought to make a list so I can scratch off each item as I complete them.
Too bad this list would have to be chipped into something quite sturdy, I'm thinking a cave wall somewhere, to stand the test of time it'd have to to wait for its completion. Too many things to do! Each of them more taxing than the last...and each far more exciting!
I have two major ideas scheming:
Chicago, a certain place there and a certain amount of money doled out for a certain skill to be acquired. I'm not too old - I'm only 23. I can't give up on this dream which popped back into my head from where I'd tied it up so many years ago. The more I think about it...the more I'm afraid to mention it to others hence my desire to speak more in riddle here.
Another place, another skill, but one I have to develop on my own and one I can begin locally. This will be more taxing I believe for it requires a lot of self reliance.
Both of these ideas require the one thing I have trouble with: self confidence. Without that, I've lost before I've even started. I do think, however, that I can do this. I really really do. This is what I've been wanting, dreaming, for so long. It scares the fuck out of me to even approach, though, because if I try and fail...what do I have left to look forward to?
I feel like I ought to make a list so I can scratch off each item as I complete them.
Too bad this list would have to be chipped into something quite sturdy, I'm thinking a cave wall somewhere, to stand the test of time it'd have to to wait for its completion. Too many things to do! Each of them more taxing than the last...and each far more exciting!
I have two major ideas scheming:
Chicago, a certain place there and a certain amount of money doled out for a certain skill to be acquired. I'm not too old - I'm only 23. I can't give up on this dream which popped back into my head from where I'd tied it up so many years ago. The more I think about it...the more I'm afraid to mention it to others hence my desire to speak more in riddle here.
Another place, another skill, but one I have to develop on my own and one I can begin locally. This will be more taxing I believe for it requires a lot of self reliance.
Both of these ideas require the one thing I have trouble with: self confidence. Without that, I've lost before I've even started. I do think, however, that I can do this. I really really do. This is what I've been wanting, dreaming, for so long. It scares the fuck out of me to even approach, though, because if I try and fail...what do I have left to look forward to?