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first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINO!
(err, technically it was yesterday, but i didn't post then, so there.)
my sleep habits are screwy again. laura kinda woke me at 2:30 this afternoon. i was half asleep at that point, and having a strange dream. it was about may 2-4 parties beer coolers (don't ask) and animal crackers. matt, you were cold, and borrowing my jacket, and lauren and amanda sent us a video from camp, and it was by danielle's old house..
i went shopping this afternoon with laura. cheap pretty dresses are hard to find. mine is black and gorgeous, and very sexy, if i do say so myself. i still either need to figure out a bra for it, or say "fuck this" and just not wear one. and i still need shoes. all my fancy shoes are white, they won't work.
work blew. we barely made quota, but there were still enough idiot people in the store to make a huge mess. it was 10 and we weren't finished yet. i feel bad for the people who are in tomorrow first thing. i'm sorry!
then this evening was like a slumber party without the slumber part. good times. chips and ice cream sundaes and cute boys on tv, and not winning any move-out money in the lottery. dammit.
so it's true, buying things does make you feel better! well at least a little. new shoes will help, so will the weekend, like 2 weeks from now. though i still feel like i'm a bunch of mixed, negative emotions. stupidness.. i like being in a good mood. i'm pretty frustrated, annoyed, cranky.. i feel kinda shafted, out of place, like i did something wrong, but i couldn't tell ya what.. kinda lonely, and stuck in the past, in more than one way.. and there are a few things that i'd really like to happen, though i can already tell that they're not going to. my apologies all.
angus, my mom for sure will not let me head out to orangeville for the weekend. she's angry with me for "not being nice" *sigh*
on the plus side of things, i get to sleep in my bed tonight, even though it's not really my bed anymore.. but bruce isn't here!
i feel like going downtown real soon. but maybe that's trying too hard. is that my problem, do i try too hard? i don't try to try too hard.. oy. brain cramp
and the 2-4. i will be drinking. that is all.
i've done both these before, but *shrugs*
Firsts:
First best friend: err, ashley fitkin, candace marsh, or susanna jensen. all childhood friends that i'm no in touch with anymore. i just can't remember whocame forst :S
First car: 2000 pontiac sunfire
First date: actual date... would have been mikey sandiford.. we went to a movie, i think.
First real kiss: kyle maybee.. oy.
First screen name: kim_kim_411
First self purchased album: something country.. reba mcentire, probably.
First funeral: my curling team mate's grandma
First pets: freida the goldfish
First piercing: ears
First credit card: i don't think i'd do too well with one of those
First true love: good question
First enemy: hmm... not sure.. don't really like keeping enemies
First musician you remember hearing in your house: garth brooks, i think
Lasts:
Last cigarette: smoking's gross. it would have been more than 2 years ago, just to try it. it's gross.
Last car ride: i just drove home from laura's
Last kiss: sometime around vaentines day.. way too long ago
Last good cry: not in a while. i'm sure for one, i think
Last library book checked out: beehtoven's 5th symphony.. err, $40 later :S
Last movie seen: shrek 2! it was excellent!
Last beverage drank: diet coke earlier tonight, and an ice cap before that
Last food consumed: ice cream and potato chips
Last phone call received: err..laura this afternoon, i think. last person i called was chris
Last time showered: yesterday night, i'm just about to have another
Last shoes worn: my docs with the ducky shoelaces.. then my cd*'s
Last cd played: the one in my car with sky on it.. tee hee
Last item bought: a lottery ticket that didn't win
Last annoyance: there are a couple constant annoyances
Last disappointment: Van Helsing (i can agree with that!!)
Last time wanting to die: i like living, thanks
Last time scolded: earlier tonight. my mom asked me if i wanted watermelon, i answered "remember how i didn't like watermelon last year? i still don't" and i got scolded.
Last shirt worn: the one i'm wearing is blue and looks like 2 shirts.. i don't like it too much, but it's appropriate for work, so *shrugs*
Last website visited: only this one
Last word you said: "hi" when i walked in
Last song you sang: i was singing "the saddest song" but the ataris on my way home
Questions:
What is in your cd player? a mix cd in my car and.. s club 7 upstaris (stfu)
What color socks are you wearing?: black polkadots
What Color of underwear are you wearing?: see through blue, with a pocket
What's under your bed?: the only thing i know for sure is my skateboard
What time did you wake up today?: 2:30 today..
Currents:
Current mood: cranky
Current music: through da wire/numb
Current taste: nothing..
Current hair: blonde.. nothing interesting right now
Current clothes: khakis and that blue shirt.. boo work clothes!
Current annoyance(s): oy, there are many..
Current longing: i wanna move out.
Current desktop picture: one of my sceenic shots from st. john's
Current book(s): nothing right now.. any suggestions? i should read more
Current color of toenails: toe nail colour
Current hate: grrrr!
One or the Other:
1. Black or white? Black.
2. Boxers or briefs? Boxers
3. Coke or Pepsi? diet coke
4. Salt or pepper? salt
5. Sweet or sour? sweet. or sweet and sour sauce
6. Vanilla or chocolate? Vanilla
7. Short or long? long, i guess
8. Cheap or expensive? cheap
9. Firm or soft? soft
10. Hot or cold? warm
My favorite.....
1. Color is: blue/black/red
2. Song is: hearts bleeding by monty;s fan club
3. Scent is: there's one guy who always smells awesome
4. Alcoholic beverage is: coolers.. i'm not picky though
5. Food is: ice cream! and chicken fingers..
WISH I:
1. Drove a(an): convertable!
2. Lived in a(an): place downtown with laura, for FREE with a mocrowave and a toaster
3. Worked at: a bar
4. Could be like: someone with lots of money.. or smeone really really friendly
5. Had: you! muahaha!
1. Kissed your cousin: yes, but only on the cheek
2. Ran away: sort of..
3. Pictured your crush naked: clearly
4. Broken someone's heart: i wish i hadn't
5. Been in love: not yet
6. Cried when someone died: yeah
7. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: that's a constant thing with me
8. Broken a bone: nope.. and lets keep it that way..
9. Lied: yup, but most people can tell when i am
10. Cried in school: yeah, once, but it wasn't about school
WHICH IS BETTER:
11. Coke or Pepsi: diet either
12. Sprite or 7UP: i'm not a huge fan of either
13. Girls or Guys: girls rule! and guys can be such a pain in the ass
14. Flowers or Candy: candy.. my cat eats any flowers
15. Blondes or Brunettes: doesn't matter at all.. i'd go for either
16. Bitchy or Slutty: slutty, i guess.. i mean at least you could get something from it
17. Tall or Short: short people are cool!
18. Pants or Shorts: i'm kinda partial to shorts.. it makes me feel like summer
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
19. What do you notice first: hair style, eyes, smile, shoes, mannerisms
20. Last person you slow danced with: oh my........ haha, it was either chris sanford or jeff armstrong last december..
21. Worst Question To Ask: does this make me look fat? i don't freakin know :P
THE LAST TIME YOU...
22. Showered: yesterday night.
23. Had Sex: a while back
WHAT IS (your favorite)...
24. Good Luck Charm: i used to have a lucky kitty figurine.. no i don't know
25. Person You Hate Most: i don't think i hate anyone.. a couple people annoy me..
26. Color: blue/black/red
27. Movie: shrek 2 currently :P
28. Cars: sunfires! and vettes, *sigh* and i will own a jaguar one day
29. Ice Cream: chocolate peanut butter
30. Season: it used to be summer, because of no school and curling camp.. but now i work and am not going to camp..
31. Breakfast Food: pancakes!
WHO:
32. Makes you laugh the most: oh my, most of my friends are hilarious!
33. Makes you smile: most people i talk to on a regular basis
34. Can make you feel better no matter what: laura danielle, and matt
35. Has A Crush On You: i've heard some rumours.. have NO idea if they're true or not though
36. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: err.. *blushes*
37. Who Has it easier? i'm not sure.. it's not super easy for either, is it?
38. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: same as "Do you have a crush on someone?"
DO YOU EVER:
39. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: i have in the past.. i'm too busy for dumb games like that now though, heh, and that' what cell phones are for
40. Save AIM conversations: yup
41. Save Emails: always
42. Wish you were someone else: more than i'd like to admit
43. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: i've ben curious, but i like being a girl
44. Perfume: do i ever perfume.....??? err, adidas moves..
45. Kiss: who, what, where? ..my favourite?? rob mclaren, outside centennial after the music banquet. really cute, like a movie.
46. Romantic memory: see above? i'm not too sure really.
47. Fallen for your best friend?: yup
48. Made out with JUST a friend?: yup
49. Been rejected: to many times
50. Been in love?: i don't think so
51. Used someone?: no
52. Been used?: i think so
53. Cheated on someone?: not my proudest moment
54. Been cheated on?: i dunno for sure.. maybe
55. Been kissed?: yes
56. Done something you regret?: yup, *sigh* many times
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
57. You touched?: laura..? i know i hugged sticky and blair earlier..
58. You talked to?: laura, though i did reply to trevor's im
59. You hugged?: sticky, i thinkg
60. You instant messaged?: ahh! i'm one step ahead! trevor
61. You kissed?: jeff..
62. You yelled at?: i only ever yell at me mother
63. Who broke your heart?: i don't even think he knows
64. Who told you they loved you?:in more than a friend way, ryan, i think
DO YOU...
65. Color your hair?: yup!
66. Have tattoos?: yup!
67. Have piercings?: yup!
68. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: i wish
69. Own a webcam?: yup! dunno where it's at right now though
70. Ever get off the computer?: rarely :P
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
71. Stolen anything?: yes, but it was from the dollar store when i was little.. nothing big ever
72. Smoke?: i have, it's gross, ew.
73. Panic?: i'm pretty layed back..
74. Depressed?: i'll get in a mood from time to time
and it looks like that's it.
good night!
(err, technically it was yesterday, but i didn't post then, so there.)
my sleep habits are screwy again. laura kinda woke me at 2:30 this afternoon. i was half asleep at that point, and having a strange dream. it was about may 2-4 parties beer coolers (don't ask) and animal crackers. matt, you were cold, and borrowing my jacket, and lauren and amanda sent us a video from camp, and it was by danielle's old house..
i went shopping this afternoon with laura. cheap pretty dresses are hard to find. mine is black and gorgeous, and very sexy, if i do say so myself. i still either need to figure out a bra for it, or say "fuck this" and just not wear one. and i still need shoes. all my fancy shoes are white, they won't work.
work blew. we barely made quota, but there were still enough idiot people in the store to make a huge mess. it was 10 and we weren't finished yet. i feel bad for the people who are in tomorrow first thing. i'm sorry!
then this evening was like a slumber party without the slumber part. good times. chips and ice cream sundaes and cute boys on tv, and not winning any move-out money in the lottery. dammit.
so it's true, buying things does make you feel better! well at least a little. new shoes will help, so will the weekend, like 2 weeks from now. though i still feel like i'm a bunch of mixed, negative emotions. stupidness.. i like being in a good mood. i'm pretty frustrated, annoyed, cranky.. i feel kinda shafted, out of place, like i did something wrong, but i couldn't tell ya what.. kinda lonely, and stuck in the past, in more than one way.. and there are a few things that i'd really like to happen, though i can already tell that they're not going to. my apologies all.
angus, my mom for sure will not let me head out to orangeville for the weekend. she's angry with me for "not being nice" *sigh*
on the plus side of things, i get to sleep in my bed tonight, even though it's not really my bed anymore.. but bruce isn't here!
i feel like going downtown real soon. but maybe that's trying too hard. is that my problem, do i try too hard? i don't try to try too hard.. oy. brain cramp
and the 2-4. i will be drinking. that is all.
i've done both these before, but *shrugs*
Firsts:
First best friend: err, ashley fitkin, candace marsh, or susanna jensen. all childhood friends that i'm no in touch with anymore. i just can't remember whocame forst :S
First car: 2000 pontiac sunfire
First date: actual date... would have been mikey sandiford.. we went to a movie, i think.
First real kiss: kyle maybee.. oy.
First screen name: kim_kim_411
First self purchased album: something country.. reba mcentire, probably.
First funeral: my curling team mate's grandma
First pets: freida the goldfish
First piercing: ears
First credit card: i don't think i'd do too well with one of those
First true love: good question
First enemy: hmm... not sure.. don't really like keeping enemies
First musician you remember hearing in your house: garth brooks, i think
Lasts:
Last cigarette: smoking's gross. it would have been more than 2 years ago, just to try it. it's gross.
Last car ride: i just drove home from laura's
Last kiss: sometime around vaentines day.. way too long ago
Last good cry: not in a while. i'm sure for one, i think
Last library book checked out: beehtoven's 5th symphony.. err, $40 later :S
Last movie seen: shrek 2! it was excellent!
Last beverage drank: diet coke earlier tonight, and an ice cap before that
Last food consumed: ice cream and potato chips
Last phone call received: err..laura this afternoon, i think. last person i called was chris
Last time showered: yesterday night, i'm just about to have another
Last shoes worn: my docs with the ducky shoelaces.. then my cd*'s
Last cd played: the one in my car with sky on it.. tee hee
Last item bought: a lottery ticket that didn't win
Last annoyance: there are a couple constant annoyances
Last disappointment: Van Helsing (i can agree with that!!)
Last time wanting to die: i like living, thanks
Last time scolded: earlier tonight. my mom asked me if i wanted watermelon, i answered "remember how i didn't like watermelon last year? i still don't" and i got scolded.
Last shirt worn: the one i'm wearing is blue and looks like 2 shirts.. i don't like it too much, but it's appropriate for work, so *shrugs*
Last website visited: only this one
Last word you said: "hi" when i walked in
Last song you sang: i was singing "the saddest song" but the ataris on my way home
Questions:
What is in your cd player? a mix cd in my car and.. s club 7 upstaris (stfu)
What color socks are you wearing?: black polkadots
What Color of underwear are you wearing?: see through blue, with a pocket
What's under your bed?: the only thing i know for sure is my skateboard
What time did you wake up today?: 2:30 today..
Currents:
Current mood: cranky
Current music: through da wire/numb
Current taste: nothing..
Current hair: blonde.. nothing interesting right now
Current clothes: khakis and that blue shirt.. boo work clothes!
Current annoyance(s): oy, there are many..
Current longing: i wanna move out.
Current desktop picture: one of my sceenic shots from st. john's
Current book(s): nothing right now.. any suggestions? i should read more
Current color of toenails: toe nail colour
Current hate: grrrr!
One or the Other:
1. Black or white? Black.
2. Boxers or briefs? Boxers
3. Coke or Pepsi? diet coke
4. Salt or pepper? salt
5. Sweet or sour? sweet. or sweet and sour sauce
6. Vanilla or chocolate? Vanilla
7. Short or long? long, i guess
8. Cheap or expensive? cheap
9. Firm or soft? soft
10. Hot or cold? warm
My favorite.....
1. Color is: blue/black/red
2. Song is: hearts bleeding by monty;s fan club
3. Scent is: there's one guy who always smells awesome
4. Alcoholic beverage is: coolers.. i'm not picky though
5. Food is: ice cream! and chicken fingers..
WISH I:
1. Drove a(an): convertable!
2. Lived in a(an): place downtown with laura, for FREE with a mocrowave and a toaster
3. Worked at: a bar
4. Could be like: someone with lots of money.. or smeone really really friendly
5. Had: you! muahaha!
1. Kissed your cousin: yes, but only on the cheek
2. Ran away: sort of..
3. Pictured your crush naked: clearly
4. Broken someone's heart: i wish i hadn't
5. Been in love: not yet
6. Cried when someone died: yeah
7. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: that's a constant thing with me
8. Broken a bone: nope.. and lets keep it that way..
9. Lied: yup, but most people can tell when i am
10. Cried in school: yeah, once, but it wasn't about school
WHICH IS BETTER:
11. Coke or Pepsi: diet either
12. Sprite or 7UP: i'm not a huge fan of either
13. Girls or Guys: girls rule! and guys can be such a pain in the ass
14. Flowers or Candy: candy.. my cat eats any flowers
15. Blondes or Brunettes: doesn't matter at all.. i'd go for either
16. Bitchy or Slutty: slutty, i guess.. i mean at least you could get something from it
17. Tall or Short: short people are cool!
18. Pants or Shorts: i'm kinda partial to shorts.. it makes me feel like summer
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
19. What do you notice first: hair style, eyes, smile, shoes, mannerisms
20. Last person you slow danced with: oh my........ haha, it was either chris sanford or jeff armstrong last december..
21. Worst Question To Ask: does this make me look fat? i don't freakin know :P
THE LAST TIME YOU...
22. Showered: yesterday night.
23. Had Sex: a while back
WHAT IS (your favorite)...
24. Good Luck Charm: i used to have a lucky kitty figurine.. no i don't know
25. Person You Hate Most: i don't think i hate anyone.. a couple people annoy me..
26. Color: blue/black/red
27. Movie: shrek 2 currently :P
28. Cars: sunfires! and vettes, *sigh* and i will own a jaguar one day
29. Ice Cream: chocolate peanut butter
30. Season: it used to be summer, because of no school and curling camp.. but now i work and am not going to camp..
31. Breakfast Food: pancakes!
WHO:
32. Makes you laugh the most: oh my, most of my friends are hilarious!
33. Makes you smile: most people i talk to on a regular basis
34. Can make you feel better no matter what: laura danielle, and matt
35. Has A Crush On You: i've heard some rumours.. have NO idea if they're true or not though
36. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: err.. *blushes*
37. Who Has it easier? i'm not sure.. it's not super easy for either, is it?
38. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: same as "Do you have a crush on someone?"
DO YOU EVER:
39. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: i have in the past.. i'm too busy for dumb games like that now though, heh, and that' what cell phones are for
40. Save AIM conversations: yup
41. Save Emails: always
42. Wish you were someone else: more than i'd like to admit
43. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: i've ben curious, but i like being a girl
44. Perfume: do i ever perfume.....??? err, adidas moves..
45. Kiss: who, what, where? ..my favourite?? rob mclaren, outside centennial after the music banquet. really cute, like a movie.
46. Romantic memory: see above? i'm not too sure really.
47. Fallen for your best friend?: yup
48. Made out with JUST a friend?: yup
49. Been rejected: to many times
50. Been in love?: i don't think so
51. Used someone?: no
52. Been used?: i think so
53. Cheated on someone?: not my proudest moment
54. Been cheated on?: i dunno for sure.. maybe
55. Been kissed?: yes
56. Done something you regret?: yup, *sigh* many times
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
57. You touched?: laura..? i know i hugged sticky and blair earlier..
58. You talked to?: laura, though i did reply to trevor's im
59. You hugged?: sticky, i thinkg
60. You instant messaged?: ahh! i'm one step ahead! trevor
61. You kissed?: jeff..
62. You yelled at?: i only ever yell at me mother
63. Who broke your heart?: i don't even think he knows
64. Who told you they loved you?:in more than a friend way, ryan, i think
DO YOU...
65. Color your hair?: yup!
66. Have tattoos?: yup!
67. Have piercings?: yup!
68. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: i wish
69. Own a webcam?: yup! dunno where it's at right now though
70. Ever get off the computer?: rarely :P
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
71. Stolen anything?: yes, but it was from the dollar store when i was little.. nothing big ever
72. Smoke?: i have, it's gross, ew.
73. Panic?: i'm pretty layed back..
74. Depressed?: i'll get in a mood from time to time
and it looks like that's it.
good night!