I Want Both Heaven and Hell To Be You
Sometimes when I look at you, I can feel it. You know that feeling you get when you get too anxious about something, like when there’s too much turbulence on the plane and for a second you think that we’re going to go down.
I’m getting to the point where seeing you is killing me, I can feel it. I’m just so tired all the time when we’re together on stage or on broadcast. Pretending that I’m okay, and that this is okay is the worst feeling in the world. The other members try to make me feel better, of course. Key is doing more fan service with you, and even Taemin is making sure that you’re as far from me as possible, but what they don’t understand is… being away from you and not touching you is killing me more then having you close.
You’re killing me Lee Jinki, and I know you know it. I can see it when you look in my eyes, when I can actually work up the courage to look at your face properly like I’m suppose to. I can see you know exactly how I feel. You look at me with this horrible look on your face, a mix of confusion, sadness and worst of all pity. I HATE you for it, I try to make the hate stay all the time. It would be so much easier then loving you. I love you, and it’s going to kill me.
Onew-hyung, I’m going to die with this love for you and I just want it to happen already. I’ve been getting drunk, and imagining us together. It’s the sweetest thing, and I think to myself that if the fan service with you and me touching myself while drunk is all of you I’m going to get, but I get to stay in SHINee and be close to you I can take it and I want the pain. I crave it.
Jinki, I’m going to love you to death.
I’m getting to the point where seeing you is killing me, I can feel it. I’m just so tired all the time when we’re together on stage or on broadcast. Pretending that I’m okay, and that this is okay is the worst feeling in the world. The other members try to make me feel better, of course. Key is doing more fan service with you, and even Taemin is making sure that you’re as far from me as possible, but what they don’t understand is… being away from you and not touching you is killing me more then having you close.
You’re killing me Lee Jinki, and I know you know it. I can see it when you look in my eyes, when I can actually work up the courage to look at your face properly like I’m suppose to. I can see you know exactly how I feel. You look at me with this horrible look on your face, a mix of confusion, sadness and worst of all pity. I HATE you for it, I try to make the hate stay all the time. It would be so much easier then loving you. I love you, and it’s going to kill me.
Onew-hyung, I’m going to die with this love for you and I just want it to happen already. I’ve been getting drunk, and imagining us together. It’s the sweetest thing, and I think to myself that if the fan service with you and me touching myself while drunk is all of you I’m going to get, but I get to stay in SHINee and be close to you I can take it and I want the pain. I crave it.
Jinki, I’m going to love you to death.