Hidden Love (part 1/2)
Title: Hidden Love (part 1/2)
Author: KaNGaRooBB
Pairing: KangMin
Rating: G
Genre: crack, angst, two-shot
Warning : broken! KangMin
Summary: Sungmin fallen in love with Kangin without himself realizing and what will happen when Kangin prank on him? (I know, very bad summary)
Author’s notes : i'm sorry for the very lame beginning and very bad grammar. My English is very limited > <
and I know I’m such a fail, It took me 4 months to finish this LOL!!
Sungmin was a bisexual and he is more into girls than guys, but not until he became one of the member of Super Junior, when he is living under the same roof with other members.
He seems to be the only ‘special’ one in Super Junior.
He had always wanted a cute and smaller person as his partner (no matter is with girls or guys).
For him, an image was just an image. He still acts like a man, his real self when they are in the dorm without cameras.
Sungmin has a rule for himself towards his partner, which is he would only be the one who tops, a rule which he thought is unbreakable and he holds onto that.
A guy who is smaller? Well, not much of choices for him even though there are 13 members as he is already small.
But then he thought that Eunhyuk, Donghae and Ryeowook are not bad.
Sungmin decided that Ryeowook will be ‘the one’ as Ryeowook is lovable and protectable.
Sadly, even though Ryeowook is feminine, he is so straight that he got disgusted by gays and this causes Sungmin to force himself to see Ryeowook as his best friend, ONLY.
Eunhyuk and Donghae do suit him, but he just don’t bear to break the EunHae couple.
**
The existence of Kangin makes things different.
Kangin is so caring and protective over Sungmin and that made him felt comfortable and safe whenever he is around with Kangin.
He likes to hugs Kangin too, especially from the back. Couldn’t be blame, Kangin is just so hug-able that people gave him a nickname, teddy bear.
Sungmin loves Kangin, and of course that is brotherly loves, because he holds onto his rule.
For some reason, Kangin likes to tease Sungmin.
He knew Sungmin is not like what the fans think. Cute? Feminine? Vulnerable?
That were all contrast to his actual personality. But he likes the ‘false’ image of Sungmin and he wants Sungmin to be like ‘that’ towards him during off screen time.
Kangin tried a lot of ways but it just fail.
**
There is one night where he got very drunk at the bar and he went back by himself.
Kangin reach the door of their dorm and knock on it as he couldn’t unlock the door with his own key.
He then supports his weight on the door while waiting.
Sungmin opens the door abruptly and Kangin fell forward, on top of Sungmin.
“ Hyung! What are you doing here?! Y- Your dorm is…is at 12th floor, n-not here.” Sungmin voice is shaky. He can’t think of anything else when Kangin’s face is an inch apart from his that their lips will meet at anytime.
Kangin supports himself up, shakes his head and had a clearer look at the person who is under him.
Is his favorite dongsaeng, with his cheeks burning red, looking away to the side.
“ This man is 10 times cuter when he is shy. “ Kangin thoughts, and that thought hits him.
“ Hy-Hyung… could y-you please…. “ Sungmin stammered.
“ Oh! I’m sorry. “ Kangin get up to his feet and helps Sungmin up.
“ No wonder I couldn’t unlock the door, I’m at the wrong floor.”
“ ……. “ Sungmin still blushing.
“ I’m leaving, sorry for interrupting you late at night.” Kangin walks to the door, still silent.
He turns around and looks at his cute little dongsaeng for the last time before he left.
“Sungmin-ah, goodnight.”
“ G- night.” Sungmin ate his words.
With that, Kangin close the door behind him and goes back to his dorm.
Now he knew, that’s the way is to make Sungmin shy.
From then on, Kangin would purposely go close to Sungmin or acted like he wanted to kiss him but Sungmin would always flinch and run away.
Running away? That’s such a bad idea because the more Sungmin avoid it, the more Kangin felt like doing it.
**
Kangin spotted Sungmin, smiling while having a little conversation with Ryeowook.
Kangin walks near Sungmin and ‘attack’ him with a rather fast speed and jump away, afraid getting hit from Sungmin.
Sungmin on the other hand, stunned. He placed his hand on the side of his cheeks where Kangin pecked on and screams his lungs out.
“ AHHHHHH!!!!!!!! “
Kangin couldn’t help himself from smiling widely at that cute reaction his dongsaeng gave and quickly runs away.
Surprisingly, this doesn’t make them apart, instead, it makes them even close.
After the‘kissing’ incident, they are like magnet, sticking with each other, day and night.
Without Sungmin realizing, he turns to become more and more feminine whenever he is with Kangin.
**
During the filming of Star King, both Kangin and Sungmin sitting together at the last row whereas the other members sitting at the front row.
They attend the show with black dress shirt today.
“ Aish, why is the studio so hot?” Sungmin said while undoing the first button of his dress shirt.
“ But I don’t feel hot here.” Kangin responds.
They enjoy the show, looking at those participants while laughing their ass off.
And there comes a handsome participant who can sing and dance very well.
“ He is handsome, ain’t he? “ Kangin asked, elbowing the younger.
Sungmin simply nodded.
“ Hyung looks way hotter than him.” He blurted out, thought that Kangin couldn’t hear him but he is wrong because Kangin turns around with a grin on his face ( a naughty one) and glance at his him.
Sungmin kicks himself mentally for blurt his thoughts out.
“ Sungmin-ah…” Kangin calls and moves his right hand to sungmin’s back, massaging him awhile and slide his hand up to strokes Sungmin’s hair…. Not to say, in an unusual way….
“ You have a soft hair. “ hand still stroking Sungmin’s hair while looking at him in a dangerously close distance.
“ No, I - I don’t “ he manage to reply the elder with a smile despite of his ‘heating’ situation.
Kangin smiles back and wraps his right hand around Sungmin’s neck, resting it on Sungmin’s shoulder.
“ Hyung is acting abnormally again.” Sungmin thought.
He can feel a pair of eyes staring at him all the time but all he can do is just ignore ‘it’.
All of sudden, Kangin slid his right hand down, right above Sungmin’s chest and the other hand coming too, reaching for Sungmin’s button.
( if you fail to imagine, it looks something like Kangin is wrapping both his arms around Sungmin’s neck)
They are so close that Sungmin can feel Kangin’s hot breath on his neck.
“ H-hy-hyung! W-wha-what are you doing?” Sungmin stutter and blushing madly.
“Sungmin-ah. If. If you continue to be like that, I will really…. Urgh~~ “ Kangin groans while buttoning up Sungmin’s dress shirt.
Sungmin not really sure if he understand what Kangin just said.
“ H-Hyung… ”
Kangin grins when he’s done, still looking at Sungmin with those ‘ I-want-to-eat-you-up’ eyes which makes Sungmin swallow hard.
“ Sungmin-ah… you know, you’re cute.” Kangin said while playing with Sungmin’s hair.
“ is… i… yea.. uhmmm “ Sungmin’s words scrambled. He didn’t dare to look at Kangin even through the corner of his eyes.
“ Sungmin-ah….” again, Kangin is calling him with an ‘unusual’ tone.
“ …..”
“ neh, hyung? “ Sungmin force himself to turn around and he come contact with Kangin’s eyes, a sincere one.
“ I like you “
“ ……” Sungmin stiffen and his jaw dropped.
“ Would you like to be my boyfriend? “
“ Hyung, please, don’t play with me…” Sungmin’s cheeks burn, he tried to focus back on the show, which is a fail.
“ Do I look like I’m playing with you? “
Sungmin turns around again, looking into Kangin’s sincere eyes make him feel like trusting Kangin’s words.
Is not that Sungmin doesn’t has any feeling towards Kangin but he just didn’t want to get prank as Kangin is one of the biggest prankster among SuJu.
“ What about Taeyeon? I thought hyung likes her?” great idea, dragging Taeyeon in.
“ We’re not real. Is impossible for us to be together. Further more, she doesn’t likes me too. So, how about that?”
“ Hyung… we talk about it later… after the show ok?”
Kangin nodded.
Sungmin tried his best to skips Kangin’s question, well, is more like a confession and pray that Kangin would forget about that after show.
He swears to God that he’ll do a lot of charities if God fulfill his request.
Unfortunately, it seems like God hates him, because after show….
“ So… You haven’t give me an answer yet.”
“ What answer?” Sungmin acts stupid.
“ For my question earlier, are you willing to be my boyfriend? “
“ Hyung, I-I don’t know “ Sungmin look away. Even himself still doubted with his own statement, either ‘don’t know’ if he likes Kangin or ‘don’t know’ if he should trust Kangin.
Sungmin’s eyes lit up when Eunhyuk walk past in front of them, he then quickly grab Eunhyuk by his wrist, left Kangin alone there dumbfounded and walks out of the studio.
“ Hyung! Hyung! Hyung! Waeyooo~ why are you rushing like you’re being chase by murderers? And why do you look nervous?” Eunhyuk questioned.
“ Hyukie ah… Aish! I couldn’t tell you.” Sungmin stops before the van.
“ What exactly happen, hyung? “
Sungmin look around them, great, no one.
“ Hyukie ah… Kangin-hyung… Kangin-hyung confessed to me just now.”
“ OMO! “ Eunhyuk’s jaw dropped. He too, shocked.
“ what- what he said? “
“ He did something really unusual to me during the filming and even ask me to be his boyfriend. “
“ Maybe he’s just playing with you, you know, he’s the biggest prankster! So, don’t think too much about it ok?”
“ I know… but… he looks… sincere… “
“ It was just part of the plan! He’s trying to make fun of you, hyung! Don’t fall into his trap!”
“hmmm… perhaps? “
“ c’mon, let’s get into the van.”
**
That night, Sungmin couldn’t sleep well, he roll around on his bed. Still thinking about what happened earlier. Just thinking about that makes him blush and giggle alone.
He wonders if Kangin sleeps well, also wonder if he should accept him on the next day.
He stopped for a moment, his pride, also the rule he set. The thing which Sungmin couldn’t accept the most, bottoming.
No way! He definitely not going for masculine guy but then, thinking of give up on Kangin makes him feel, empty? He didn’t know what’s the feeling. Just, not comfortable.
Maybe….
Kangin might be the exception? As he also found himself behaving more like a girl in front of Kangin.
Kangin… the only one whom he can accept to top him.
**
Everything seems to be fine on the next day as Kangin acted like nothing happened.
Sungmin tried to talk with Kangin ‘normally’ but he just couldn’t, even though Kangin didn’t bring out the confession topic of last night.
Perhaps, it was like what Eunhyuk told Sungmin, Kangin was just playing with him.
That thought alone upset him and he didn’t know why. Is not like he likes Kangin that way but then not to deny that he feel something towards the ‘teddy bear’.
It frustrates and confuses him even more when Kangin behave ‘normally’ with him.
**
Again, Sungmin couldn’t sleep for the night. He flips open his phone, staring at the screen, and flip it close, he kept repeat doing that for almost the whole night, thinking deeply if he should text Kangin.
He knew he wouldn’t get to sleep if he don’t ‘settle’ that for tonight.
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From : Mini
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Hyung, I actually mind about what you did to me last night
which makes me couldn’t sleep well for days.
(Sungmin call Kangin as Kangkim in Intimate Note and I found it special XD)
From : Kang Kim
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I’m so sorry Min, I didn’t know that you would mind about it.
I was just joking, don’t take it serious ok? I’m sorry.
From : Mini
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Just joking? Do you see me as a toy to replace ‘her’???!!
and express you whatsoever needs or deprive??!
From : Kang Kim
-
What do you think I am? And it is not like what you think!
I never see you as ‘her’ and also never see you as my toy!
Is just that I like to see your cute reactions
when you’re terrify with something abnormal!!
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“Something abnormal?! It is so god damn it normal! At least… for me, it is.” Sungmin thought.
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From : Mini
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It is even more heartbreaking to know that you’re only joking……
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With that, Sungmin throw his phone to the table and hug his pillow tightly while crying his heart out.
He’s not sure why is he crying though, but he can feels his heart rip apart when he reads the text from Kangin.
Finally, he could sleep well that night, he cried himself to sleep.
On the other side, Kangin felt frustrated. He grabs a handful of his locks.
“ What’s going on?” he mumbles to himself.
For some reason, his heart is clenching in pain. He knew he’d hurt his beloved dongsaeng.
**
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