Jun 03, 2005 18:12
You're nto wrong, Melissa about the part where I shouldn't make it harder for him... But he hasn't shown me in the last couple days that any of this is hard for him. he hasn't shown me that leaving me was hard for him. He wont talk to me and tell me specifically way he left me, and all I want is a nice, calm, collective conversation with him where he can treat me like a friend, like he used to; and explain to me what the hell I did wrong. I did not manipulate Michael. I would never do it, ever. Ever. I'm not a liar. I'm not someone who wants to hurt Michael... all I want is to help him, but at the same time I wanna be by his side, and if you're telling me that's wrong, then i don't understand... I was willing to wait for Michael. I even told him "It's fine, we don't have to see eachother anymore, i don't want your dad to hurt you."... I am willing to go the distance, but he continues to say I am lost, I'm looking for someone to take care of me. It's half true, cuz I'm really really lost without him. But I don't want anyone to take care of me... I just wanna take care of him...
If this is all a crime... I guess I'm guilty. I'm confused, and I want to talk to my best friend about all of it, but my best friend is Michael. He's the only one I could really communicate too, and now he doesn't even want me around.... He doesn't treat me like his friend anymore....
Call me, melissa.. please?