Life or something like it
Well All goes well, I haven't written anything in a while because I've been very busy trying to get my business going. I have developed several new clients that that is very good and tomorrow I'm doing a talk for the Optimist's Club of Victorville.
Everything is great with me and Justin. I fall more in love with that man everyday. And everyday I am more and more sure that he is my perfect match in every way. We've started looking at houses and apartments but I'm not sure how soon I'm going to be moving yet. I think it's just going to be a right place right time, Okay go...kinda thing. The sooner the better though. For one it's expensive trying to drive up there all the time and it's almost silly to come home...I meet him up at faire site for build on Saturday and then left his house monday and I will be going back up tomorrow to stay there through the weekend. So I'm basically up there all the time. I'm networking and doing talks for some local groups. Every friday that I can be up there I'm going to the Hesperia Chamber of Commerce Coffee. It's really great. I'm voolentering with the golf tournament they put on every year and I'm hoping to join the chamber soon.
Justin is trying to start up his business with Chris building servers and computer. He'll be making lots of money once he gets going but they've gotten stuck on picking a name. They can't do anything else until they pick a name. I've been flaking on doing my fictious business name license. I need to do that so I can open a bank account that I can pay myself out of.
I talked to Ken today about what faire is going to be like. I know he's not going to be there for the whole run but I'm sure he will still be around and I don't want there to be trouble between him and Justin. They were once very good friends and the best of drinking buddies. I told him Justin says he should just beat the pulp out of him to get out his agression and then they can be friends again but Ken's not like that. We'll just have to wait and see how things go at faire. I think we will all end up being friends again. But I know in the back of Justin's minda will be a little voice that makes him worry about me hanging out with Ken. One of his old girlfriends let him for her Ex. I've never really gone running back to a guy. I mean I've done it but not since I was a freshman and well that was more for moral support ...well nm that might be a bad example but I only did that once and it's ancient history. I can't see myself back with Ken. Everything in my life is too perfect right now. I really like it. Not saying that Ken isn't a great person cuz he is, but he's just not who I'm suppost to be with. And I think I knew that from the beginning but didn't know how to keep it just friends and it got carried away. I knew Ken and I were not going to last forever. Did I love him...Absolutly. Do I still love him...Not in that way but Yes. Have I found the greatest thing ever in Justin...Do you even question it, cuz I don't. I learned alot about myself in my relationship with Ken. I am happy that we shared that time together. I think (and hope) that we should (and can) get over the things that are keeping us from being very good friend. I think that's what we were ment to be. Back then I thought that just because I slept with a guy means that I should start to fall for him. And well most of us know that that is anything but the truth. I've learned that You fall in love with someone because ... well maybe I shouldn't go into this now because that's a whole other rant - "why do we fall inlove". Not one I'm prepared to go into right now. Nor do I have the time. I have to finish my talk that I'm doing tomorrow. I'll write again soon I hope. At least to let you all know how it went.
BTW for those of you who are faire ppl - I'm working at leather masks this year. Come find me there.
Everything is great with me and Justin. I fall more in love with that man everyday. And everyday I am more and more sure that he is my perfect match in every way. We've started looking at houses and apartments but I'm not sure how soon I'm going to be moving yet. I think it's just going to be a right place right time, Okay go...kinda thing. The sooner the better though. For one it's expensive trying to drive up there all the time and it's almost silly to come home...I meet him up at faire site for build on Saturday and then left his house monday and I will be going back up tomorrow to stay there through the weekend. So I'm basically up there all the time. I'm networking and doing talks for some local groups. Every friday that I can be up there I'm going to the Hesperia Chamber of Commerce Coffee. It's really great. I'm voolentering with the golf tournament they put on every year and I'm hoping to join the chamber soon.
Justin is trying to start up his business with Chris building servers and computer. He'll be making lots of money once he gets going but they've gotten stuck on picking a name. They can't do anything else until they pick a name. I've been flaking on doing my fictious business name license. I need to do that so I can open a bank account that I can pay myself out of.
I talked to Ken today about what faire is going to be like. I know he's not going to be there for the whole run but I'm sure he will still be around and I don't want there to be trouble between him and Justin. They were once very good friends and the best of drinking buddies. I told him Justin says he should just beat the pulp out of him to get out his agression and then they can be friends again but Ken's not like that. We'll just have to wait and see how things go at faire. I think we will all end up being friends again. But I know in the back of Justin's minda will be a little voice that makes him worry about me hanging out with Ken. One of his old girlfriends let him for her Ex. I've never really gone running back to a guy. I mean I've done it but not since I was a freshman and well that was more for moral support ...well nm that might be a bad example but I only did that once and it's ancient history. I can't see myself back with Ken. Everything in my life is too perfect right now. I really like it. Not saying that Ken isn't a great person cuz he is, but he's just not who I'm suppost to be with. And I think I knew that from the beginning but didn't know how to keep it just friends and it got carried away. I knew Ken and I were not going to last forever. Did I love him...Absolutly. Do I still love him...Not in that way but Yes. Have I found the greatest thing ever in Justin...Do you even question it, cuz I don't. I learned alot about myself in my relationship with Ken. I am happy that we shared that time together. I think (and hope) that we should (and can) get over the things that are keeping us from being very good friend. I think that's what we were ment to be. Back then I thought that just because I slept with a guy means that I should start to fall for him. And well most of us know that that is anything but the truth. I've learned that You fall in love with someone because ... well maybe I shouldn't go into this now because that's a whole other rant - "why do we fall inlove". Not one I'm prepared to go into right now. Nor do I have the time. I have to finish my talk that I'm doing tomorrow. I'll write again soon I hope. At least to let you all know how it went.
BTW for those of you who are faire ppl - I'm working at leather masks this year. Come find me there.