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Im in a funk.
And at this point the only way that i can think that will actually help pull myself out of this funk is a fresh start.
I am going to move out of Fayetteville.
This has been a long time coming, usually but off by the excuse that I'm waiting to "finish school" before I venture out of the city. This place sucks and is a black hole so I'm ready to move on.
Just me and my dogs....
I had to add that in there just to clarify. Whenever I tell someone that Im moving they ask me who I know in the new city. Why do I have to know someone there? I'm not moving for anyone except K dot Brown.
And I'm actually excited....I've been applying to a lot of jobs in the city and when I finally do get a good one I'm gone.
Money..... Got the stimulus check fm the gov...spent the check from the gov..... I have to treat myself whenever I get the chance, that's all Im gonna say in my defense. I'm working getting myself back on track with my budget. Ths is gonna be very important for the move. I have to establish a Get Out Of Fayettevile Fund and start really cracking down on what I'm spending my money on. I should actually be able to start saving a little something and paiying off a couple (yes I did say a couple) of credit cards..again...important for the move. Relocationing is gonna be expensive and I know Im gonna have a hell ot a time finding a house. But in the end a better life is worth it. God always takes care of me so I'm not too worried right now.
Dating....Or I should say that I'm more avoiding. Nothing wrong with the guy(s) besides the total absence of any romantic spark. Im starting to think that I'm not quite ready to date yet. I dont want to lead on anyone or do anything that's gonna create a stalker. It's bad but faced with the choice of staying home by my lonesome and seeing them I often chose my pillow or the tv.
I miss him.
I waiting to burst into flames for typing that cause it's just not right but hey.....I really dont understand where this came from because when he was here I had a slow burning hatred for him after we broke up, and couldnt wait for him to go. I felt nothing for the first week or so about having the house to myself again . So why do I feel like this now? The one thing that would make me feel better about the whole situation would be if I knew that he is suffering without me.
Which prob makes me an asshole, but atleast I'm an honest one.
In other news......Just like everyone else, I'm fat and have been to try to eat heathier and exercise.....I'm sleepy...more later
And at this point the only way that i can think that will actually help pull myself out of this funk is a fresh start.
I am going to move out of Fayetteville.
This has been a long time coming, usually but off by the excuse that I'm waiting to "finish school" before I venture out of the city. This place sucks and is a black hole so I'm ready to move on.
Just me and my dogs....
I had to add that in there just to clarify. Whenever I tell someone that Im moving they ask me who I know in the new city. Why do I have to know someone there? I'm not moving for anyone except K dot Brown.
And I'm actually excited....I've been applying to a lot of jobs in the city and when I finally do get a good one I'm gone.
Money..... Got the stimulus check fm the gov...spent the check from the gov..... I have to treat myself whenever I get the chance, that's all Im gonna say in my defense. I'm working getting myself back on track with my budget. Ths is gonna be very important for the move. I have to establish a Get Out Of Fayettevile Fund and start really cracking down on what I'm spending my money on. I should actually be able to start saving a little something and paiying off a couple (yes I did say a couple) of credit cards..again...important for the move. Relocationing is gonna be expensive and I know Im gonna have a hell ot a time finding a house. But in the end a better life is worth it. God always takes care of me so I'm not too worried right now.
Dating....Or I should say that I'm more avoiding. Nothing wrong with the guy(s) besides the total absence of any romantic spark. Im starting to think that I'm not quite ready to date yet. I dont want to lead on anyone or do anything that's gonna create a stalker. It's bad but faced with the choice of staying home by my lonesome and seeing them I often chose my pillow or the tv.
I miss him.
I waiting to burst into flames for typing that cause it's just not right but hey.....I really dont understand where this came from because when he was here I had a slow burning hatred for him after we broke up, and couldnt wait for him to go. I felt nothing for the first week or so about having the house to myself again . So why do I feel like this now? The one thing that would make me feel better about the whole situation would be if I knew that he is suffering without me.
Which prob makes me an asshole, but atleast I'm an honest one.
In other news......Just like everyone else, I'm fat and have been to try to eat heathier and exercise.....I'm sleepy...more later