(uni titled)
Sometimes now, I get off-kilter, talking to a person for too long. That didn't used to happen. I didn't used to have two freckles on the palm of my left hand. I didn't used to take my tea plain, and my oatmeal plainer. I didn't use to sum up all my emotions into one word, like a dumpling in too much gravy. grumpy. not sad, not regretful , not thinking wishful thoughts and would rather be quiet right now not i don't understand the world and i hate it or relentless, finicky, marginalized, perverse and irritable, preening, callous, selfish, unusually particular no no no nothing. i am nothing but grumpy or not grumpy. i am a binary code that has forgotten what color is like.