Deep in thought

[kandiraveorange]

In my last entry, i made a few statments one of changing the way i viewed things while changing the way i lived at the same time, and another about taking things for granted. Today, these things were just broght back to me when Rob had informed me of a DJ in buffalo whom at the age of 29, died of congestinal heart failure. I didn't know this person, but as slow as it has been at work it brought me to thinking. Not that JJ, took his life for granted, because i don't know him. But the fact that alot of people take for granted that when they wake up the next day all of there loved ones will still be here. Not talking in his case at all. But it made me wonder, while i was reading the thread and talking to a person who knew him. How many people out there don't say what they feel for a person, assuming one day that they will get that chance, and then they wake up one day, and they are gone. Never thinking for one second that they wouldn't be able to say what they wanted. Also how many people put off things in life that they have always wanted to do, either being a procrastinator or just thinking that, well i can do it next year or i will have time later...and then they never get that chance. So many things in life are taken advantage of from a simply friendly smile to life. I am going to try and keep these things in mind and appreciate more of what i have in life.
I had said that i have been changing the way i lived, basically just trying to be a better person. I haven't always been the best person in the world, though i am not looking for redemption, nor is it a religous quest. More of just a personal quest, just to be a better person, becaue i know i can be.
And to the very few people who read this...just so you know. I love you guys!