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One more day till home, I leave Tuesday around 3. Mixed feelings. I really want to see my family and such, and I love Thanksgiving, but...things are so different now.
Johnny said I wasn't the person I used to be, and in a way different than he meant, he's right. I'm not the person I was.
It's feel strained to talk to friends from home now. I feel so different from them. The karate kids...Villa girls...my mallrats....all the rest...just no. Things are different, I am different. Now there's only like people from Etown and home combined that I really connect with anymore. That's creepy.
So I'm afraid to go home and have things be awkward, and have everyone acknowledge that things will never be the same.
And of course there is the ever-present particular-boy trouble. *Sigh* I'm taking this song out of conext, but it works. I wish things could be like before.
"Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect"
Johnny said I wasn't the person I used to be, and in a way different than he meant, he's right. I'm not the person I was.
It's feel strained to talk to friends from home now. I feel so different from them. The karate kids...Villa girls...my mallrats....all the rest...just no. Things are different, I am different. Now there's only like people from Etown and home combined that I really connect with anymore. That's creepy.
So I'm afraid to go home and have things be awkward, and have everyone acknowledge that things will never be the same.
And of course there is the ever-present particular-boy trouble. *Sigh* I'm taking this song out of conext, but it works. I wish things could be like before.
"Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect"