SASHIBURIIII~
Huaaaa... I missed you guys (and LJ) so much! >__<
Well, it's 11:50 PM right now, I said I was gonna do my homework like 5 hours ago but it hasn't happened yet. Instead, I'm updating cause I missed all of you guys!!! I think I'm like 6 months behind on checking my f-page... sorrryyyy ^^;;;;;; but how is everyone?????
I have a confession to make. Right now I'm just living in a different dimension..it's like.. I'm just not being myself I guess. These days I've started thinking that I need to go to a psychiatrist or something.. I think I'm losing 1. ability to talk to people. 2. my sensitivity chip
I just can't handle being with "people" anymore. And it's funny 'cause for the 9-10 hours a day I'm at work I'm actually my usual happy self. But my work environment.... it's like a big vacuum that drains your soul... By the time I'm out of work, honest to god...it's like I completely shut down my entire self from the world. I just can't...... like if someone tries to engage in a conversation with me, I'll be like.. "could you please just tell me what you want me to do to??" or even it's just a casual dinner with a friend I can't find a subject to talk about.. it's like my brain is empty (and I'm a quite person to begin with) anyways, it's that kind of thing.... I don't want to blame - again - the fact that I work with 18 whiny women as the cause for me being like this.. >_< In reality, it's my own fault for having this.. personality.. that I like to listen.... oh man.. I always blame everything at my job... what the heck..
Anyways.... I feel like I owe Ran-chan an apology. The last time we hung out I was SO out of it.. and looks like I will be REALLY quiet some time now... X__X And I haven't even called you since then -___-;;
Last week I decided to go out with 4 friends. Six Flags. I thought some companies & crazy rides would be nice & refreshing.... oh man I feel SOOO bad for them. There was probably like 10 words that came out of my mouth. They probably thought I was.. a) not having fun or b) I'm just a plain weirdo... X___X
There's definitely something wrong with me right now...
Now on top of school and all this crazy shit that's going on with me... I also feel like I just wanna be with my cousin Astrid. It's so weird.... I'll be honest, I have been staying away from lots of people, even Kelly. I feel like I could hurt them anytime, or not being understanding.. or whatever.. But with Astrid, I feel like it's okay to be messed up.. it's okay to not say a word 'cause she would just somehow...get me. ARGH!. WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON WITH ME? I'm 23, can't be mid life crisis......IS IT?????? >__<
sigh~~~ this entry turned up to be a pathetic rant.... gomen-ne.. >__< Oh~ I'll make it up... how about some photos?? I've been really into photography lately.. ^__^ but I broke my camera (at six flags trip) ;_____; Oh well... onto the photos~
Hihi
Old warehouse..with a photoshop trick XD
Cute butt ^_~
Merrimac River, MA
Vespa..haha.. I missed Indonesia.. we had lots of this
What photoshop can do.. ^_~
Six Flags - Agawam, MA
I think this is a tent? XD
some door knob at six flags
kyaaaaa!!
This was at Six Flags as well.. pretty scary eh?
And for the win.....
Ah! and these are just shots I took from L'arc en Ciel's video tour.. I'm SOOOOOOO in love with them lately. Happy B'day Tet-chan ^__^ *kissu*
Tetsu
Hyde
Well, it's 11:50 PM right now, I said I was gonna do my homework like 5 hours ago but it hasn't happened yet. Instead, I'm updating cause I missed all of you guys!!! I think I'm like 6 months behind on checking my f-page... sorrryyyy ^^;;;;;; but how is everyone?????
I have a confession to make. Right now I'm just living in a different dimension..it's like.. I'm just not being myself I guess. These days I've started thinking that I need to go to a psychiatrist or something.. I think I'm losing 1. ability to talk to people. 2. my sensitivity chip
I just can't handle being with "people" anymore. And it's funny 'cause for the 9-10 hours a day I'm at work I'm actually my usual happy self. But my work environment.... it's like a big vacuum that drains your soul... By the time I'm out of work, honest to god...it's like I completely shut down my entire self from the world. I just can't...... like if someone tries to engage in a conversation with me, I'll be like.. "could you please just tell me what you want me to do to??" or even it's just a casual dinner with a friend I can't find a subject to talk about.. it's like my brain is empty (and I'm a quite person to begin with) anyways, it's that kind of thing.... I don't want to blame - again - the fact that I work with 18 whiny women as the cause for me being like this.. >_< In reality, it's my own fault for having this.. personality.. that I like to listen.... oh man.. I always blame everything at my job... what the heck..
Anyways.... I feel like I owe Ran-chan an apology. The last time we hung out I was SO out of it.. and looks like I will be REALLY quiet some time now... X__X And I haven't even called you since then -___-;;
Last week I decided to go out with 4 friends. Six Flags. I thought some companies & crazy rides would be nice & refreshing.... oh man I feel SOOO bad for them. There was probably like 10 words that came out of my mouth. They probably thought I was.. a) not having fun or b) I'm just a plain weirdo... X___X
There's definitely something wrong with me right now...
Now on top of school and all this crazy shit that's going on with me... I also feel like I just wanna be with my cousin Astrid. It's so weird.... I'll be honest, I have been staying away from lots of people, even Kelly. I feel like I could hurt them anytime, or not being understanding.. or whatever.. But with Astrid, I feel like it's okay to be messed up.. it's okay to not say a word 'cause she would just somehow...get me. ARGH!. WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON WITH ME? I'm 23, can't be mid life crisis......IS IT?????? >__<
sigh~~~ this entry turned up to be a pathetic rant.... gomen-ne.. >__< Oh~ I'll make it up... how about some photos?? I've been really into photography lately.. ^__^ but I broke my camera (at six flags trip) ;_____; Oh well... onto the photos~
Hihi
Old warehouse..with a photoshop trick XD
Cute butt ^_~
Merrimac River, MA
Vespa..haha.. I missed Indonesia.. we had lots of this
What photoshop can do.. ^_~
Six Flags - Agawam, MA
I think this is a tent? XD
some door knob at six flags
kyaaaaa!!
This was at Six Flags as well.. pretty scary eh?
And for the win.....
Ah! and these are just shots I took from L'arc en Ciel's video tour.. I'm SOOOOOOO in love with them lately. Happy B'day Tet-chan ^__^ *kissu*
Tetsu
Hyde