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This not having heat is making me severely depressed.
I can't sleep and everything hurts because it's so cold.
My fingers are so stiff it's hard to type but I have to let some of these emotions out because I feel like I am going to completely loose it if I don't release some of this.
I have already been dealing with worsening depression since Helene and then the election made it so much worse and now having no heat just puts me over the edge.
I am trying to be positive and be grateful I'm not on the streets, I know so many people are and have it so much worse. But when it's in the 20s and 30s and a huge snow storm is coming up and you already feel so cold and miserable and IN SO MUCH PAIN it's hard to feel positive about anything, especially when there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.
I do feel very selfish feeling as distraught as I do but I can't turn it off, this is how I feel.
I hate my situation, I hate everything. I hate having to always keep up a brave face for everyone and pretend to be ok all the time.
I don't just want something good to happen, I NEED something good to happen. But life doesn't work that way. Life is just hardship after hardship and I should be used to it by now.
My cats are miserable too and I wish I could get them to sit with me and my heated blanket to warm them up but they are not people cats, especially one of them does not like people to even look at her, but they are so cold and unhappy too I wish they could accept being warmed up.
I can't sleep and everything hurts because it's so cold.
My fingers are so stiff it's hard to type but I have to let some of these emotions out because I feel like I am going to completely loose it if I don't release some of this.
I have already been dealing with worsening depression since Helene and then the election made it so much worse and now having no heat just puts me over the edge.
I am trying to be positive and be grateful I'm not on the streets, I know so many people are and have it so much worse. But when it's in the 20s and 30s and a huge snow storm is coming up and you already feel so cold and miserable and IN SO MUCH PAIN it's hard to feel positive about anything, especially when there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.
I do feel very selfish feeling as distraught as I do but I can't turn it off, this is how I feel.
I hate my situation, I hate everything. I hate having to always keep up a brave face for everyone and pretend to be ok all the time.
I don't just want something good to happen, I NEED something good to happen. But life doesn't work that way. Life is just hardship after hardship and I should be used to it by now.
My cats are miserable too and I wish I could get them to sit with me and my heated blanket to warm them up but they are not people cats, especially one of them does not like people to even look at her, but they are so cold and unhappy too I wish they could accept being warmed up.