You can't put a stamp on this!
So... there's this guy at work I more or less argue/debate with near constantly. Granted 9/10's of the time I'm doing it for the sheer sake of doing it. Taking no real stance on anything, just arguing the counterpoint to anything he may or may not have to say.
Most of this is me, reasserting the idea that man is a contradiction. We want to do better, but at the same time we do nothing but push each other down. People have become beyond vindictive against one another, and pointing the blame at ourselves is huuuuuge no no.
My co-worker is all about f***in' communism, believing a good chunk of our problems would be solved if we just headed that way. I believe the 10 commandments were perfect. It's so damned simple, and everything written is just big fat duh. Don't fuck over your neighbor, don't steal from him, don't fuck his wife, respect their opinions and feeligs and vice versa. Whether or not they believe in God is another story, but that's another topic.
I can debate with him and leave it at that. I don't take anything he says to heart, he has his own opinions on life, and I have mine. Granted I rarely bring my beliefs into the conversation 'cause they're mine. There's nothing eloquent about them, and they're about as simple as a belief can get. There's no need for me to argue it, 'cause I don't much care what counterpoint might offer, 'cause my beliefs are what make me me. I don't believe I'm perfect, but I don't believe I'm flawed either. I'm exactly the way I'm supposed to be.
Running off topic, I don't know if it's a guy thing or what, but I learned that I seem to have an air of competitiveness. People seem to just want to challenge me for one reason or another, and sadly, once challenged I feel I have to take it on.
Case... I went to rent a movie for my dad, and was coming home. This guy pulls up beside me, and I got this bored look I always have when I generally have nothing better to do and am just daydreaming. This guy pulls up, and I only glance over through my peripheral and just from the glimpse, I see the driver and his buddy chattin' and peekin' over at me, and I immediately already know what's going to happen. It's like, why... I just want to sit in my room and read a damned book... I'm not in the mood for anything else. The light turns green and right off the block, they come out speeding. I'm like, way to go, you're such a hardass.
The second occurrence was at work. For whatever reason I've been getting praise for my work, and I really didn't think anything of it, 'cause it felt like playing some random live action version of Tetris.. just fit the boxes together and make a wall. One of the team leader's comes over to gloat that he had made a better wall, since I apparently made him feel bad (he was being sarcastic) But as a team leader, it's just something he (all of them really) should've been doing from the start. I see this wall, and I'm like, oh dear god, why am I constantly being challenged.
The last case, was probably my own mind twisting it to be as such, but it just amazed me, that my everyday actions seem to be enough to warrant a need to compete.
Just the same I love to compete.... it's another reason I'm constantly debating with my co-worker. Just to make a counterpoint, to contend another way.
On the same token I challenge people all the time... especially in GW, and any given sport. There's no fun in it for me, unless it's a match of equal footing. Playing around is fun, and even when competing I don't do it to say I'm better than the next guy, it's simply to push myself into not half assing the event.
... and now I lift weights and I'm bored as hell by myself, but feel like I need to compete with every dude there that's bigger than me, just because they're bigger than me. I don't even want to get as big as half of them, but I want that same level of fitness.
F***in' ego -_-
Most of this is me, reasserting the idea that man is a contradiction. We want to do better, but at the same time we do nothing but push each other down. People have become beyond vindictive against one another, and pointing the blame at ourselves is huuuuuge no no.
My co-worker is all about f***in' communism, believing a good chunk of our problems would be solved if we just headed that way. I believe the 10 commandments were perfect. It's so damned simple, and everything written is just big fat duh. Don't fuck over your neighbor, don't steal from him, don't fuck his wife, respect their opinions and feeligs and vice versa. Whether or not they believe in God is another story, but that's another topic.
I can debate with him and leave it at that. I don't take anything he says to heart, he has his own opinions on life, and I have mine. Granted I rarely bring my beliefs into the conversation 'cause they're mine. There's nothing eloquent about them, and they're about as simple as a belief can get. There's no need for me to argue it, 'cause I don't much care what counterpoint might offer, 'cause my beliefs are what make me me. I don't believe I'm perfect, but I don't believe I'm flawed either. I'm exactly the way I'm supposed to be.
Running off topic, I don't know if it's a guy thing or what, but I learned that I seem to have an air of competitiveness. People seem to just want to challenge me for one reason or another, and sadly, once challenged I feel I have to take it on.
Case... I went to rent a movie for my dad, and was coming home. This guy pulls up beside me, and I got this bored look I always have when I generally have nothing better to do and am just daydreaming. This guy pulls up, and I only glance over through my peripheral and just from the glimpse, I see the driver and his buddy chattin' and peekin' over at me, and I immediately already know what's going to happen. It's like, why... I just want to sit in my room and read a damned book... I'm not in the mood for anything else. The light turns green and right off the block, they come out speeding. I'm like, way to go, you're such a hardass.
The second occurrence was at work. For whatever reason I've been getting praise for my work, and I really didn't think anything of it, 'cause it felt like playing some random live action version of Tetris.. just fit the boxes together and make a wall. One of the team leader's comes over to gloat that he had made a better wall, since I apparently made him feel bad (he was being sarcastic) But as a team leader, it's just something he (all of them really) should've been doing from the start. I see this wall, and I'm like, oh dear god, why am I constantly being challenged.
The last case, was probably my own mind twisting it to be as such, but it just amazed me, that my everyday actions seem to be enough to warrant a need to compete.
Just the same I love to compete.... it's another reason I'm constantly debating with my co-worker. Just to make a counterpoint, to contend another way.
On the same token I challenge people all the time... especially in GW, and any given sport. There's no fun in it for me, unless it's a match of equal footing. Playing around is fun, and even when competing I don't do it to say I'm better than the next guy, it's simply to push myself into not half assing the event.
... and now I lift weights and I'm bored as hell by myself, but feel like I need to compete with every dude there that's bigger than me, just because they're bigger than me. I don't even want to get as big as half of them, but I want that same level of fitness.
F***in' ego -_-