Grah...
I hate dickhead parents. I really do. When your daughter is 20 and still asks you permission to go places, it's fucking sad. Seriously. Now, I could understand you asking "Hey, where are you going?" That's good parenting, but when they have to ASK you to go. No. That's just... not right. Your daughter is now a grown woman. She can make her own decisions and make her own mistakes, just as you did when you were younger.
Bah... It just angers me when parents get in the way. This woman (Jenn)'s father prevented her from coming to see me this past weekend. Now, the way she explained it, yeah, she kinda asked at the wrong time, but to go so far as to kick her out of the house? God dammit. It fucking pisses me off. I just want to choke the shit out of some people.
I know I'm going to be an overprotective father. I understand this, but I also know that once my child reaches the age of 18, I can't stop her from doing and making decisions. I hope to be a good and influential father figure. One that my child will look back and be like "My Dad is awesome. He taught me..." Just like I am with my dad. My Dad is one of the greatest men I have ever met in my life. He didn't make all the greatest decisions in his life, but he did well enough to support us in a fairly comfortable lifestyle.
Meh... maybe I've just been spoiled with having such a great family. I know people don't have the benefit of having two parents who love each other madly and love their children. I don't know how it's possible for a parent not to love their child, but I've seen it and I still just can't fathom how or why. Meh... oh well.
So yeah, I'm still talking to Jenn. I don't know if she's going to be able to ever come up here now. It pisses me off so much. I want to be able to see her before I go on leave, but I'm 80% certain that that's not going to happen and I doubt I'll be able to see her before I get deployed again. I 'unno. Life is starting to get boring and I want some excitement in my life.
"But Chris, you're in the Army. How can life be boring?" Oh trust me, it's QUITE easy. Meh... I could sit here all day explaining ways into which it's like that, but I'm not. I'm tired and I'm waiting for Jenn to call me.
Is it bad that I'm trying to be cautious when it comes to my emotions, yet I think I'm... I dunno how to explain it... liking this girl to fast? She's awesome, yes, but, I dunno. Every time I try to put up a bit of a wall around my heart, it kinda just gets swatted aside. I mean, I'm not falling in love with this girl by any stretch... yet, but I really really really like her.
*sighs* Relationships are hard.
Bah... It just angers me when parents get in the way. This woman (Jenn)'s father prevented her from coming to see me this past weekend. Now, the way she explained it, yeah, she kinda asked at the wrong time, but to go so far as to kick her out of the house? God dammit. It fucking pisses me off. I just want to choke the shit out of some people.
I know I'm going to be an overprotective father. I understand this, but I also know that once my child reaches the age of 18, I can't stop her from doing and making decisions. I hope to be a good and influential father figure. One that my child will look back and be like "My Dad is awesome. He taught me..." Just like I am with my dad. My Dad is one of the greatest men I have ever met in my life. He didn't make all the greatest decisions in his life, but he did well enough to support us in a fairly comfortable lifestyle.
Meh... maybe I've just been spoiled with having such a great family. I know people don't have the benefit of having two parents who love each other madly and love their children. I don't know how it's possible for a parent not to love their child, but I've seen it and I still just can't fathom how or why. Meh... oh well.
So yeah, I'm still talking to Jenn. I don't know if she's going to be able to ever come up here now. It pisses me off so much. I want to be able to see her before I go on leave, but I'm 80% certain that that's not going to happen and I doubt I'll be able to see her before I get deployed again. I 'unno. Life is starting to get boring and I want some excitement in my life.
"But Chris, you're in the Army. How can life be boring?" Oh trust me, it's QUITE easy. Meh... I could sit here all day explaining ways into which it's like that, but I'm not. I'm tired and I'm waiting for Jenn to call me.
Is it bad that I'm trying to be cautious when it comes to my emotions, yet I think I'm... I dunno how to explain it... liking this girl to fast? She's awesome, yes, but, I dunno. Every time I try to put up a bit of a wall around my heart, it kinda just gets swatted aside. I mean, I'm not falling in love with this girl by any stretch... yet, but I really really really like her.
*sighs* Relationships are hard.