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[kamui_gackt]

*He wasn't quite sure what kind of scene was playing in his head. All he felt was the dull ache in his heart, a strange tearing that made him want to stop breathing. The pain suffocated his senses, until abruptly, he woke up. Eyes flung open, staring out into the darkness. It was barely morning. 4:39AM. His vision blurred a little, the glowing red

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[cha_fujimura]

*Cha murmured sleepily as he felt arms wrap about him and pull him closer to his love, happy to obliege he opened his eyes and blinked sleepily at the clock. Yawning softly he gave a small smile.*

Having trouble sleeping again koi?

*Reaching out he brushed his fingers against his lover's cheek in a nonchalant motion meant to sooth, only there was wetness there and sniffles punctuated his lover's breath as he listened. He couldn't see well in the still darkened room, but he felt it and knew the signs for what they were. Gaku was crying...but why? He wrapped his arms tighter about his lover's form.*

Daijyoubuka?

*His voice was laced with concern, but far from paranoia, his hand still petting his lover's cheek wiping away tears.*

[kamui_gackt]

*The comfort he found inside his lovers arms soothed the tears a little, but disobediently, they continued to run down the smoothe surface of his skin, glazing skin with sorrow. He curled up against the guitarist a little more, pressing his body up against Cha's desperate, seeking warmth..*

...Stay with me.. Don't go...

*He clung to the other man's body, squeezing his eyes shut and furrowing his brows. It felt like if he even let go for a moment, his image would disappear, and the bed would be empty. Like the glow of the moon would wash away his koi's body, steal him away..*

[cha_fujimura]

Baka koi...

*He nuzzled his lover's face with his nose, kissing away tears, gentle, carring caresses against the tear stained surface. Long, delicate digits slipped up and down over the vocalist's spine before he rested his hand flat against the small of Gackt's back, rubbing in gentle circles.*

Where would I go...last time I checked...this was my house...

*He chidded teasingly before his voice dropped to a softer more comforting tone.*

I would never leave you...I couldn't...

[kamui_gackt]

*He choked out soft laughter at his lovers comment, and nuzzled into his neck, burying his face into the curve. His lover's scent calmed him a little, and pressing a kiss to the guitarists flesh, he brushed lips against the recently opened bite mark.. purring at it affectionately..*

I couldn't bear it if you left me.. Cha..

*Again, he moved closer to his koi, until both of their bodies pressed together tightly, until he could feel his lover's heartbeat pressed against his chest and thud rhythmically with his own.*

You're here.. but I miss you..

[cha_fujimura]

*Smiling at the purr, the brush of lips over his mark made him shudder softly as he laughed as well. As Gackt moved closer to him he did the same. His head droping to rest against his lover's shoulder, tiny kisses placed over the flawless skin. He felt his lover's heartbeat, the rise and fall of the other's chest as he breathed.

breath...

The word sparked something inside his mind and he pulled his head from his lover's shoulder and smiled as fingers brushed against his lover's cheek, moving so he could look into his koi's eyes as he spoke as he smiled.

Then I'll give you my soul...I know how. I read about it once...when I was teaching.

*The dark orbs sparkled as he spoke. There was an idea forming there, he knew his lover would be able to tell as much, Gackt knew him so well.*

Close your eyes....

[kamui_gackt]

*Furrowing his brows, the tears eventually stopped, save for a few droplets that slid and fell onto his lovers skin. Listening to his koi speak, he lifted his head a little and looked down at him..*

..Makes me wonder what you were teaching those kids..

*Obeying the request, he slowly shut his eyes, the flutter of lashes falling to curtain gleaming blue irises.. ones that seemed translucent against the filtering glow of the streetlamps outside..*

I want.. to give you mine.. too..

[cha_fujimura]

*He smiled at both his koi's comment about what he had taught and also that he was willing to go along with what he had planned.*

The Native American tribes belived that one could give their soul to another through their breath. That if you shared one breath you shared everything. That through that a part of the other person's soul would always remain with you...and you with them...

*He watched his lover's face as he told is story. Soft hands cupped his lover's cheeks lightly. The guitarist's thumbs brushing gently over the remnants of damp skin.*

Take a deep breath...then let it go....

[kamui_gackt]

*Doing as he was told, Gackt inhaled deeply, eyes closing and body laxing at the gentle hands at his cheeks. Furrowing his brows a little, he concentrated, feeling the chill of morning air fill his lungs and circulate through him, a tremor running down his spine..*

Cha..

[cha_fujimura]

Shhhhh....don't talk...just breath....

*He watched silently for a few long moments, concentraiting on the rhythm of his lover's breathing, then just when he considered the timing to be right he brought his lips to Gackt's. It wasn't exactly a kiss as it lacked the force that a kiss did, it was far more gentle. A placing of lips against lips out of necessity rather then overwhelming passion.

Inhaling as the other exhaled he held his own breath for a moment before he exhaled through his mouth and into his lover's own. Warm breath flowing from his body, the small chest caving in as Gackt's filled with his stolen breath.

[kamui_gackt]

*His eyes opened wide for a moment, as he felt Cha's lips against his.. before again, they fluttered to a shut. The air shared between them became warmer, hotter each time it was transferred between their bodies, escalating rapidly in temperature until it became almost unbearably so. But Gackt refused to move, refused to relinquish the moment, feeling the heat run rampant through his veins..

His fingers crept upwards, and tangled themselves in the mass of blonde tresses.. twining inside the silken strands and softly stroking through them..*

[cha_fujimura]

*His eyes had fluttered shut at the moment of contact as he fell into the steady transfer of breath from one to the other. But it wasn't only the breath he felt, there was Gackt's heartbeat, each movement of the other's chest, every muscle that did so much as twitch. The guitarist became acutely aware of every place that their flesh touched.

The breathing continued and he felt the rising heat between him until he felt that his insides would melt or possibly just burst into flames because of it. When he could finally couldn't take it for another second he pulled away, letting out a searing breath that burned his lips and brushed against the pair still hovering so closely to his.

Black lashes parted to reveal the large dark eyes, which gazed into his lover's. It took a full minute for his voice to work again properly, and even then it was little more then the softest of whispers.*

A part of my soul rests inside you...there's no where you can go that I won't be there with you. We're a part of each other...Isshouni...zutto...

[kamui_gackt]

*He felt the lips leave his, and immediately drew in a deep gulp of cold air, his breaths being nothing but small pants, desperate to feel the soothing intake of cool oxygen.. His eyes stare intently into Cha's, as if he were drinking from their depths, taking in everything, before his gaze spread over the features of his face.. examining every beautiful detail..

The words comforted him and settled the restless ache in his heart. Everything calmed down, and Gackt wrapped his arms around the guitarist tightly, pulling him close again..*

A part of me is inside you too.. I want it to be there always.. I want to know that I'm always with you.. that there's nothing in the world that can take you away from me..

[cha_fujimura]

Nothing can. I love you.

*The guitarist's delicate fingers were roaming again. Over the soft cheeks and even ventured through the dark tendrals of hair that was supposedly off limits to everyone but their owner, although he knew better. His lover would never deny him a touch, and vice versa.*

I find myself hard pressed to remember a time when I wasn't in love with you...I would say there was a time before we met when I wasn't...but even then, that wouldn't be true. Back then I was in love with the idea of finding someone that I could love as much as I love you.

*A brilliant smile pulled at his lips as his dark orbs gathered some of the stray light from outside, lending to their sparkle.*

So I guess you could say...that I've always loved you. There's never been a time when I didn't...I just had to find you.

[kamui_gackt]

*Listening in silence, his heart became overwhelmed.. bathed in adoration for the man lying next to him. He wasn't quite sure what to say in return. For all his words, for all the quick remarks he made in interviews, for all the lyrics that he wrote of his broken heart.. it was now, when he wanted to express himself the most, that Gackt became without words. He fumbled a little.. but came up with nothing.. nothing that could describe the absolute and complete love he felt. And so, he simply pressed his lips to the guitarists.. murmering against the caress..*

I love you.. It may be just 3 words.. but it's everything. I adore you. I cherish you. I need you. I can't be without you. It's everything in my heart..

[cha_fujimura]

*Returning the kiss he smiled into the touch of his lips against his lover's again, the memory of what had just passed a few minutes prior replaying wonderfully in his mind. As he was sure it would everytime that their lips met. He gave a soft and contented sigh.*

If you truly mean them...like I know you do...then three words are all you need. I know your heart...I know the love that's there, I feel it too. Aishiteru mo.

[kamui_gackt]

*Fingers sought out the guitarists own, sliding along elongated limbs, down to the slender digits at his hands.. lacing them together and giving them a gentle squeeze and he smiled affectionately at the other man. He brought the hand up to his lips, laying a kiss to each digit, the same ones that flew over guitar strings deftly and produced the most glorious of sounds from his guitar. Pinky to thumb, he brushed his mouth over their lengths, and everything just.. fell into place..

Turning to lie on his back, he pulled his lover atop of him.. drawing his body to lie flatly against his own, feeling every curve and crevice of koi's body melting into his own..*

I want to fall asleep like this for the rest of my life. With you next to me.