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Spiders are the bane of my life. I have a terrible, paranoid phobia of arachnids and most insects. Yes it is a phobia, yes it is irrational, yes I know they can't really hurt me, no I don't know why I fear this particular thing. Just something in my brain tells me more than 4 legs= bad and scary. After my last small anxiety attack, I thought I was going to be ok. I would see one now and then, get a little jump of fear, then proceed to smash it mercilessly into unrecognizable bits, then move on with my day. Well a few minutes ago the BIG fear came back. The paralyzing, heart racing, and crying fear because of a little spider. I hate summer for so many reasons, and this is the MAIN one. I rarely dare to venture out onto the back porch, ever, because the spiders are so bad out here. I'm not sure how the bugs are up north, but the south is pretty much hell on earth for me during the summer. Also, fleas and ticks are fun when you have tons of fur bearing creatures in your house. But I seem to be the only one bothered by any of these things around here, so unless I do something about it, we're going to have spiders, and the animals will have ticks and fleas, which means THE HOUSE will have ticks and fleas. Ok...I need to stop typing before I bring more anxiety on myself and then I won't be able to sleep.....
Oh I will definetly be shelling out the money to have the house sprayed this year. Its been warm for a few days and already they are coming out in droves. I'm sure I'll also have to buy the flea preventatives for the animals. Fuck I hate summer.
Oh I will definetly be shelling out the money to have the house sprayed this year. Its been warm for a few days and already they are coming out in droves. I'm sure I'll also have to buy the flea preventatives for the animals. Fuck I hate summer.