thoughts.
so I am totally and completely in love with Brandon..
I realized this last night, for the first time it hit me head on that I am fully involved in a relationship again..
and it scares the living hell out of me.
I know he loves me, but with all this change going on, what if I'm just not good enough for him anymore??
I never see what he sees in me in the first place...
and I don't know what I would do without him..
and as for S.
I think I'm just going to tell him to take his feelings, and shove them up his ass, and hide them when we hang out...
he's too good of a friend to not hang out with,
but I don't want to be the one to fuck this up. and I refuse to play that part again.
Those insecure feelings, or temptations rather, are gone.
and I'm completely ready to be head over heels in love with someone again,
although this time it feels so much better, loving someone who loves you back..
I realized this last night, for the first time it hit me head on that I am fully involved in a relationship again..
and it scares the living hell out of me.
I know he loves me, but with all this change going on, what if I'm just not good enough for him anymore??
I never see what he sees in me in the first place...
and I don't know what I would do without him..
and as for S.
I think I'm just going to tell him to take his feelings, and shove them up his ass, and hide them when we hang out...
he's too good of a friend to not hang out with,
but I don't want to be the one to fuck this up. and I refuse to play that part again.
Those insecure feelings, or temptations rather, are gone.
and I'm completely ready to be head over heels in love with someone again,
although this time it feels so much better, loving someone who loves you back..