I fear a bleak future

[kamikazekazuo]

I now know, with certainty, that it was not meant to be.

And, I'm actually okay with that.

My best friend told me that he was glad I was not the one that was for her. He said he liked her, but loved me enough to not see me through that turmoil. And, I agree with him, whole heartedly.

For him to say that to me, meant the world to me. This way I know that someone else is out there for me.

I get afraid that the road ahead is darkened and not lit with any radiance. But, I cannot think this way.

Somewhere out there, my lady is waiting, or rather adventuring, like I am.

I guess I did not want to venture alone anymore. These past few things that I have done on my own, or sometimes with another person, only make me wish I had found the "one" to share these memories with. But, then I understand. I need to have my fill of whatever this season of life is on my own first and then and only then can I join on a duo adventure with the one I'm meant to be with.

I hope she's running to me as fast as I am trying to run towards her.

I've been reading a lot more. I've been smiling a lot more. I've been happier than I was then. And that... that's a good start.