Scene from Jane Street
OK so every time I drink too much coffee I start to feel really hopeless and melancholy. I'm not really sure why my mind plays tricks on me when I'm super caffeinated but this has merely reinforced my belief in downers of all kinds. Java aside, life has been interesting lately... I got a job at my school newspaper to write music reviews which is pretty rad. I'm really excited and scared at the same time cause I want to make a good impression and hope people like my writing. I'm trying pretty hard in school too, I've only missed two classes this semester, I really need to do well cause I'm already gonna be graduating 2 years later than expected so I don't really have much leeway these days. I'm about to ask for a raise at my job because I think it's time they give me more money cause I've been working at the coffee shop now for almost 2 years. I'm going home in 2 weeks and I'm really excited cause I haven't been back to Mass for like almost 6 months and it's really bothering me. I will be heading up there with my good pal Mike and will be stopping at Bard University on the way. I have never been there before but I'm excited cause I've heard a lot of good things. I will probably be living in Fairfax this summer so I wanna make the best of my time home aka sex, drugs, and rock n roll. Oh and I turn 22 on the 13th, which is great and all except for the fact that my fucking license expires and I have about to pay about 2 grand in unpaid parking tickets in order to renew it. Looks like I'll be getting a liquor license.. ew! I've been doing a lot of organizing with SDS too and that has been nice but very stressful. I've learned over the last year or so and I hope to achieve success in the near future. It'd be really awesome to occupy a building at GMU a la New School or NYU, but I have a feeling the school would call in the national fucking guard or the FBI and have us blown up or something! Anyhow the fact that students are rising up and making their demands heard is quite exciting and motivating, I just don't know if Mason students care enough to stand up for their rights as students. Apathy seems to be our biggest foe as of right now both within the chapter and in the student body.. sigh. I'm gonna wrap this post up and just say that I'm happy with how my life is right now but I really wonder if the stress and sense of lingering disappointment is something to even regard. Doing stuff such as organizing, barista-ing, going to class, and writing has really helped me move along from the heart-ache of days past. I have found myself strangely content with single-ness but I wouldn't mind someone sweeping me off my feet too. I tend to over-analyze situations and this causes me to go on and on but if you have to this point than I have to thank you cause this shit has been epic. OK well hope things are good w/ everyone...