too many sensations now for it to be so real
Last night = amazing
I thought it was going to suck because i didn't think i was going to get out of work on time but it turned out that the show didn't even start till like 10. So i got there and wow. I found out what i aspire to be when i grow up, a cellist. I was in awe all night. I've heard cello's before but the way this girl played was astonishing, it was so deep and it appeared as she felt every cord she played. It was seriously beautiful. I had heard of before, but i didn't know they were anything like they were. A combo of cello, organ, guitars, and drums. P.S. the drummer was amazing and hot.
look at her go <3
and the drummer...drumming on the WALL!
hah i was like, wow can we get married now?
and ,
im in love
Im so envious.
I cant decide if i want to be those girls, or marry them. hah <3
i saw my ex there..and it makes me wonder what dilutes my perception of people at times.
no regrets though right? no more mistakes then, i hope. I am from here on asexual. Im letting go <3
Oh and...
hah <3
I got a fucking gorgeous rampage shirt the other day before i worked at the catering thing. I made 75 dollars for 7 hours. Not too bad. Met some guys that were working there as well, he asked for my digits. heh. This 16 year old boi was macking on me all night, it was so cute.
yeah, yeah...this camera is making me vain as fuck, i went to the beach the other day with steve, i got two new bathing suits, ones all vintage looking and the other looks like some militia get up, role playing anyone?
should i do suicide girls?
I need to finish my essay for my application for UCF like today.
I still have the option to graduate early, but i can't decide.
I hate decisions, as most of you know.
I could work full time and save up mad money, but i also feel like im missing a lot of things, and then i remember how much i hate waking up and going there everyday. My life is so close to begining, and im really starting to get scared that im going to screw things up. I don't want to be working in some middle class 9 to 5 job i hate when im 30. I don't want a routine life. I need to have more fun though. Im really excited about going to Europe. Can't wait actually. I think things may be getting better, at least i hope...theres a lot going on towards the end of this month. I'm going to keep busy and not think about certain things. Maybe I can forget? Out of sight out of mind. Does that really work though? I need to get out more. hah
xoxo
jen
I thought it was going to suck because i didn't think i was going to get out of work on time but it turned out that the show didn't even start till like 10. So i got there and wow. I found out what i aspire to be when i grow up, a cellist. I was in awe all night. I've heard cello's before but the way this girl played was astonishing, it was so deep and it appeared as she felt every cord she played. It was seriously beautiful. I had heard of before, but i didn't know they were anything like they were. A combo of cello, organ, guitars, and drums. P.S. the drummer was amazing and hot.
look at her go <3
and the drummer...drumming on the WALL!
hah i was like, wow can we get married now?
and ,
im in love
Im so envious.
I cant decide if i want to be those girls, or marry them. hah <3
i saw my ex there..and it makes me wonder what dilutes my perception of people at times.
no regrets though right? no more mistakes then, i hope. I am from here on asexual. Im letting go <3
Oh and...
hah <3
I got a fucking gorgeous rampage shirt the other day before i worked at the catering thing. I made 75 dollars for 7 hours. Not too bad. Met some guys that were working there as well, he asked for my digits. heh. This 16 year old boi was macking on me all night, it was so cute.
yeah, yeah...this camera is making me vain as fuck, i went to the beach the other day with steve, i got two new bathing suits, ones all vintage looking and the other looks like some militia get up, role playing anyone?
should i do suicide girls?
I need to finish my essay for my application for UCF like today.
I still have the option to graduate early, but i can't decide.
I hate decisions, as most of you know.
I could work full time and save up mad money, but i also feel like im missing a lot of things, and then i remember how much i hate waking up and going there everyday. My life is so close to begining, and im really starting to get scared that im going to screw things up. I don't want to be working in some middle class 9 to 5 job i hate when im 30. I don't want a routine life. I need to have more fun though. Im really excited about going to Europe. Can't wait actually. I think things may be getting better, at least i hope...theres a lot going on towards the end of this month. I'm going to keep busy and not think about certain things. Maybe I can forget? Out of sight out of mind. Does that really work though? I need to get out more. hah
xoxo
jen