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It's like digging through a mountain of shit. You find a rock, and you're like, "Oh man! This could be a diamond! Digging through all this shit was totally worth it! I'm smelly and tired and probably somewhat mentally retarded from the methane fumes by now, but this could make my entire LIFE!"
So you sit there, sinking deeper into the shit, trying to wipe the rock off, and clean it up, and it's ABSOLUTELY EXHILARATING. Then it crumbles apart and you realize it was just a dried-up piece of shit anyway. You want to die because your options are to either walk away shitty, tired, and retarded with nothing to show for it, or keep plowing through the shit to try and find an ACTUAL diamond; neither are promising aspects.
So you sit there, sinking deeper into the shit, trying to wipe the rock off, and clean it up, and it's ABSOLUTELY EXHILARATING. Then it crumbles apart and you realize it was just a dried-up piece of shit anyway. You want to die because your options are to either walk away shitty, tired, and retarded with nothing to show for it, or keep plowing through the shit to try and find an ACTUAL diamond; neither are promising aspects.