Somehow being sick is making me think...
I caught a bit of a cold on top of some other things so I missed school today and slept a lot on top of drinking lots of green tea. It gave me too much time to think for my own good. This song "Beautiful Enemy" I've been listening to is applying itself to people in my life.
One thing that I'd like to bring up is something I've been hearing from a couple of people which is my relationship with Corey. Yes, I have a boyfriend and though the only time I see him really is during play practices, people think that we're not intimate enough. Now hold on a second...I've had issues with guys in my past, ranging from attempted molestation to getting stalked...therefore my trust factor has to be rebuilt. This does not mean in anyway that I am not happy with Corey because he's really sweet and funny and just great to be around. People ask me "have you guys even kissed?" and the answer is yes, we have. Have we done anything more than that? Not really. TMI moment? Sorry. It's just that my previous history with guys makes me want to pull away from intimacy and lean towards a friendship because sex hounds are after one thing and I'm pretty sure I don't have to spell that out for you. Corey and I have a friendship based relationship and I feel that for now, that's comfortable for me. So the answer stands, yes, even though Corey and I aren't the most intimate of couples, we are still a couple and we're happy.
Reflecting on everything, this year so far has been a huge learning experience for me as well as presenting several challenges that I am working hard to overcome. My closest friends have been helping me through it night after night, and for that, I thank you all. As I scratch and claw my way towards graduation with the overambition of getting out, I have to push myself above the immature people I've found myself dealing with recently in almost everything I do. What should I say to them...this:
-You are young and yet you make huge things out of nothing
-You will not die if you don't have a significant other or if you don't see your boyfriend or girlfriend for more than 24 hours. Also, PDAs are annoying in the hallways of RFH.
-Suck ups are annoying and deserve to be smacked
-It is not my fault for the fact that you don't know what you're doing cuz you didn't practice. So save yourself the tears and bitchiness and spend 5 minutes to work something out instead of yelling at me about it because it'll help and frankly, I don't wanna hear it.
-Don't insult people behind their backs...word travels fast here
And yes, it's also true that Shei has become one of my best friends. Yet people insult my friendship with her or the fact that I talk about her all the time. I'm sorry if this bothers you, but in my eyes, I have found one of my best friends and I feel honored to know her. She is really nice to me and I have a connection with her that I can say I don't have with anyone else and I'm learning sooo much from her. And yes, it's true she has a sisterly hero impact on me. To have her as a friend is something that I am thankful for as well as many other people, so just because you say that I talk about her too much isn't going to make me bow down to you and stop talking.
Those are the biggest issues I have with people here. I'd also like to add that yes, cosplay is a HUGE part of my life as well as Otakon and my study of the Japanese language and culture. The only one with true insulting rights is Angela because we are even (due to the fact that I can say she's addicted to WoW). So don't insult my work or my dedication to my craft because I work really really hard on them and use what knowledge of sewing to make my work look the best that it possibly can. Yes, it's true, my cosplays are top priority next to getting into college. Also, don't insult my choice of cosplays. Don't like the fact that I don't do more things like Naruto or One Piece or Final Fantasy? Want to know why? BECAUSE I'M NOT A MAINSTREAM COSPLAY WHORE LIKE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE ARE. So what if people don't know who I am...it makes it all the better when someone does recognize me.
So what have we learned today, kiddies? My name is Jennifer Jean Noonan and I have a horrible case of senioritis. My best friends are cosplayers which fuels my drive to cosplay even more. And despite immature people I have to deal with day in and day out, I like my life. To my Beautiful Enemies who hate the words I've typed here:
Oh my enemy, beautiful enemy
Hail to your vast hegemony
You're not innocent
I'm not innocent
No one's innocent.
One thing that I'd like to bring up is something I've been hearing from a couple of people which is my relationship with Corey. Yes, I have a boyfriend and though the only time I see him really is during play practices, people think that we're not intimate enough. Now hold on a second...I've had issues with guys in my past, ranging from attempted molestation to getting stalked...therefore my trust factor has to be rebuilt. This does not mean in anyway that I am not happy with Corey because he's really sweet and funny and just great to be around. People ask me "have you guys even kissed?" and the answer is yes, we have. Have we done anything more than that? Not really. TMI moment? Sorry. It's just that my previous history with guys makes me want to pull away from intimacy and lean towards a friendship because sex hounds are after one thing and I'm pretty sure I don't have to spell that out for you. Corey and I have a friendship based relationship and I feel that for now, that's comfortable for me. So the answer stands, yes, even though Corey and I aren't the most intimate of couples, we are still a couple and we're happy.
Reflecting on everything, this year so far has been a huge learning experience for me as well as presenting several challenges that I am working hard to overcome. My closest friends have been helping me through it night after night, and for that, I thank you all. As I scratch and claw my way towards graduation with the overambition of getting out, I have to push myself above the immature people I've found myself dealing with recently in almost everything I do. What should I say to them...this:
-You are young and yet you make huge things out of nothing
-You will not die if you don't have a significant other or if you don't see your boyfriend or girlfriend for more than 24 hours. Also, PDAs are annoying in the hallways of RFH.
-Suck ups are annoying and deserve to be smacked
-It is not my fault for the fact that you don't know what you're doing cuz you didn't practice. So save yourself the tears and bitchiness and spend 5 minutes to work something out instead of yelling at me about it because it'll help and frankly, I don't wanna hear it.
-Don't insult people behind their backs...word travels fast here
And yes, it's also true that Shei has become one of my best friends. Yet people insult my friendship with her or the fact that I talk about her all the time. I'm sorry if this bothers you, but in my eyes, I have found one of my best friends and I feel honored to know her. She is really nice to me and I have a connection with her that I can say I don't have with anyone else and I'm learning sooo much from her. And yes, it's true she has a sisterly hero impact on me. To have her as a friend is something that I am thankful for as well as many other people, so just because you say that I talk about her too much isn't going to make me bow down to you and stop talking.
Those are the biggest issues I have with people here. I'd also like to add that yes, cosplay is a HUGE part of my life as well as Otakon and my study of the Japanese language and culture. The only one with true insulting rights is Angela because we are even (due to the fact that I can say she's addicted to WoW). So don't insult my work or my dedication to my craft because I work really really hard on them and use what knowledge of sewing to make my work look the best that it possibly can. Yes, it's true, my cosplays are top priority next to getting into college. Also, don't insult my choice of cosplays. Don't like the fact that I don't do more things like Naruto or One Piece or Final Fantasy? Want to know why? BECAUSE I'M NOT A MAINSTREAM COSPLAY WHORE LIKE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE ARE. So what if people don't know who I am...it makes it all the better when someone does recognize me.
So what have we learned today, kiddies? My name is Jennifer Jean Noonan and I have a horrible case of senioritis. My best friends are cosplayers which fuels my drive to cosplay even more. And despite immature people I have to deal with day in and day out, I like my life. To my Beautiful Enemies who hate the words I've typed here:
Oh my enemy, beautiful enemy
Hail to your vast hegemony
You're not innocent
I'm not innocent
No one's innocent.