I now know why in Kdramas old stressed people hold the back of their head...
I'll go to bed in thirteen minutes. I swear I will. Tomorrow will be nerve-wracking and fast-paced enough WITHOUT me suffering from sleep deprivation at the same time.
I'm not as on top of things as I'd like to be. It'll happen though, it will. I'm taking a step up from last semester, it shouldn't surprise me that things aren't as easy and comfortable for me. It's hard for me to be social, to force myself to go out when sometimes all I want to do is hide away. To be fair, today I DID hide away when this one guy (who's kinda awkward) stood around outside the classroom waiting for me. But that doesn't count... or at least, I'll make up for it! *sheepish*
Tomorrow I get to (maybe) figure out whether I'm being overly sensitive or if my world really is as strange as I sometimes worry it might be (aka I might find out if S. was actually asking me out or just offering that we hang out sometime).
I got a B+ on my Digital Media paper. That's not cool, next one will be better. I swear it. And probably about Korea, at this rate. *excited*.
Other than that one paper, my grades are flawless so far. Even T.-sensei seems to like me well enough this semester. Not as much as she likes that one goofball in the class, but enough that she smiles even when I ask stupid questions. I'm always on time and I always do my work (and, when I can, I try to be creative and interesting).
I still need to do Saturday's Korean homework, I think I'll still have the energy to do it tomorrow- it really depends on how Chinese Corner goes. If I get clobbered like I did last time, it might not be that easy. I'm honestly terrified- like, I get butterflies every time I think about it. But I KNOW it's the right thing to do. So I'm not giving up.
Gosh, DBSK is basically what's keeping me alive at some points. At other points it's funny internet news and gossip. Sometimes it's my friends, who have begun forgiving me, and have started actually seeking me out again. But I mustn't get comfortable! I need to learn to call THEM, to invite them to hang out, rather than waiting.
Soon it will be waiting for that notice. I've GOT to get into the CLS program, I've just GOTTA!
I'm doing well these days. I am. I feel like I'm running to make it true, but thus far it's true. And given how things are at home, it feels more and more miraculous and important every day that I SUCCEED.
I'm thinking about giving up studying abroad. I've only entertained this 'interesting' notion for the past couple of days. And it's only if I can do something else big and important in its place, of course. If you know me, you know I've been dreaming of studying abroad since I learned that it was possible in the seventh grade. So I won't make this a light decision. I'm still exploring, and I plan to meet up with an advisor from the English department even before I talk to my parents about it, so I'm well informed.
This is a pretty self-centered entry. It's not written for others' eyes, just for the sake of my fidgety fingers and muddled mind.
Oh yeah! I made a bowl! It's going to be sold when I'm in class, so I already know what day I'm going to skip class- April 1. Haha, that's fun, skipping on April Fools' Day. There's something appropriate about it. But yeah, it's for this thing where you paint a bowl and then later you can buy it (or those made by others) and you get it with soup in it. The proceeds from the sales go to some sorta starvation charity type thing. I have a button somewhere about it, I was kinda giddy and out of it that day.
I've been making language discoveries! I love it. A company can't turn off the lights in Japanese, nor can the morning, but Yamada-san can!; a cowtree in Korean is, in fact, not a cowtree but a pine tree- who'da thunk it?; hao a has no 'l' in it in Chinese, it just sounds like it does. The list goes on and on. I love it so much.
My i-Pod is broken. It is sad. Stupid headphone jack... C. and I tried to fix it (using a splitter), but today that failed as well.
My roomie asked me if I ever went out, and I felt myself blanch before she added "you know, to clubs or whatever." I honestly thought she was asking me if I have a life. *rueful smile*
I'm rambling. My time is up. In fact, it was up two minutes ago. Wah, I wanna keep listening to music... T_T But sleep beckons.
I hope everyone's been having a good semester. Take care, especially with all this crazy weather! (My hair actually froze this morning! It got all stiff and when I raked my hands through it they came out with shavings of ice. That'll teach me to shower in the morning during wintertime...).
Later, all *waves.
I'm not as on top of things as I'd like to be. It'll happen though, it will. I'm taking a step up from last semester, it shouldn't surprise me that things aren't as easy and comfortable for me. It's hard for me to be social, to force myself to go out when sometimes all I want to do is hide away. To be fair, today I DID hide away when this one guy (who's kinda awkward) stood around outside the classroom waiting for me. But that doesn't count... or at least, I'll make up for it! *sheepish*
Tomorrow I get to (maybe) figure out whether I'm being overly sensitive or if my world really is as strange as I sometimes worry it might be (aka I might find out if S. was actually asking me out or just offering that we hang out sometime).
I got a B+ on my Digital Media paper. That's not cool, next one will be better. I swear it. And probably about Korea, at this rate. *excited*.
Other than that one paper, my grades are flawless so far. Even T.-sensei seems to like me well enough this semester. Not as much as she likes that one goofball in the class, but enough that she smiles even when I ask stupid questions. I'm always on time and I always do my work (and, when I can, I try to be creative and interesting).
I still need to do Saturday's Korean homework, I think I'll still have the energy to do it tomorrow- it really depends on how Chinese Corner goes. If I get clobbered like I did last time, it might not be that easy. I'm honestly terrified- like, I get butterflies every time I think about it. But I KNOW it's the right thing to do. So I'm not giving up.
Gosh, DBSK is basically what's keeping me alive at some points. At other points it's funny internet news and gossip. Sometimes it's my friends, who have begun forgiving me, and have started actually seeking me out again. But I mustn't get comfortable! I need to learn to call THEM, to invite them to hang out, rather than waiting.
Soon it will be waiting for that notice. I've GOT to get into the CLS program, I've just GOTTA!
I'm doing well these days. I am. I feel like I'm running to make it true, but thus far it's true. And given how things are at home, it feels more and more miraculous and important every day that I SUCCEED.
I'm thinking about giving up studying abroad. I've only entertained this 'interesting' notion for the past couple of days. And it's only if I can do something else big and important in its place, of course. If you know me, you know I've been dreaming of studying abroad since I learned that it was possible in the seventh grade. So I won't make this a light decision. I'm still exploring, and I plan to meet up with an advisor from the English department even before I talk to my parents about it, so I'm well informed.
This is a pretty self-centered entry. It's not written for others' eyes, just for the sake of my fidgety fingers and muddled mind.
Oh yeah! I made a bowl! It's going to be sold when I'm in class, so I already know what day I'm going to skip class- April 1. Haha, that's fun, skipping on April Fools' Day. There's something appropriate about it. But yeah, it's for this thing where you paint a bowl and then later you can buy it (or those made by others) and you get it with soup in it. The proceeds from the sales go to some sorta starvation charity type thing. I have a button somewhere about it, I was kinda giddy and out of it that day.
I've been making language discoveries! I love it. A company can't turn off the lights in Japanese, nor can the morning, but Yamada-san can!; a cowtree in Korean is, in fact, not a cowtree but a pine tree- who'da thunk it?; hao a has no 'l' in it in Chinese, it just sounds like it does. The list goes on and on. I love it so much.
My i-Pod is broken. It is sad. Stupid headphone jack... C. and I tried to fix it (using a splitter), but today that failed as well.
My roomie asked me if I ever went out, and I felt myself blanch before she added "you know, to clubs or whatever." I honestly thought she was asking me if I have a life. *rueful smile*
I'm rambling. My time is up. In fact, it was up two minutes ago. Wah, I wanna keep listening to music... T_T But sleep beckons.
I hope everyone's been having a good semester. Take care, especially with all this crazy weather! (My hair actually froze this morning! It got all stiff and when I raked my hands through it they came out with shavings of ice. That'll teach me to shower in the morning during wintertime...).
Later, all *waves.