[Fanfiction] Letter, NishiKato
Title: Letter
Author: kamepi_love
Pairing: NishiKato
Rating: PG
Genre: romance, a little fluff
Summary: Shige finds a very interesting letter
Author's Note: mistakes I suppose.
I’ve got nothing but you. But at the same time you don’t belong to me, because you love your freedom too much and I have no right to take it from you. I love you too damn much. I don’t deserve you, I know, but still…a man can dream, right? And so I dream and try to hold myself back from being angry at Koyama for his stupid phrases about your love and oh, so special friendship. I try so hard, but it’s stronger than me and I’m too weak. Weak to your smiles, your bright eyes, your voice. I’m weak to you.
It’s like insomnia that burns me from the inside little by little everyday. It’s painful, but pleasant at the same time. I’m a fucking masochist, am I? But everything about you drives me crazy, makes me loose control and I just can’t stop this feeling. I don’t want to. You’re my weakness and my power. I love you. So much that sometimes it’s hard to breath. I want you by my side. Always. I want you to love me, to be proud of me. I can’t imagine my life without you.
I never thought that I can feel that way. Who would guess that among all people I would fall for you? Fall hard and fast, without opportunity to fall out. But on the other hand it seems so natural and right. Perfect even. We even have the same kanji in our names. Does it mean that we were meant to be? It sounds so lame and stupid, yet I want it to be true. I’m so insecure, that I can believe in anything that confirm that we were made for each other. I know, I never show it, but I feel so insecure.
Shige, you’re like a sunshine that lightens up my whole life. Thanks to you I can experience such strong and wonderful feelings, that I don’t even know before. I know I’m a jealous freak and not right for you, but still…I want to be the one for you like you’re the one for me. I’m afraid of that day when you got tired of me, my pride, my possessiveness and snarky remarks. I don’t think I can survive without you by my side…
Thank you for happiness that you give me, for inspiration, for lazy mornings and heated nights, for warmth and comfort, for always being there. For every single smile.
I’m sorry for every time you were disappointed in me. Sorry for every single tear drop because of me. I’m really sorry, but I just love you too much, though I’m not very vocal about it, sorry for that too.
If you could love me for whom I’m, with all my imperfections, then I don’t need anything else.
Yours Ryo.
Shige read it about ten times, but still can’t quite believe, because seriously Ryo and letters? That’s just…no. But at the same time he knows his handwriting very well and the style, so he is 100 percent positive, it’s Ryo writing. And that revelation makes Shige’s heart beats faster and a stupid grin appears on his lips, which only widens when he feels two warm arms around his waist and a soft, so gentle kiss behind his right ear.
“What’re you doing?” asks Ryo, while noses his neck and purring quietly.
“A letter from a fan boy” answers Shige, enjoying his lover’s ministrations. “It’s so touching; I’d like to meet him”.
“Why?” Ryo tensed up behind him, his arms becomes tighter around Shige’s waist, like he’s afraid that if he let go, Shige would disappear.
“Because this letter makes me fall in love with him again and again every time I read it. Fall for him even deeper than before”.
Shige turned around to face his lover and smiled “You’re so stupid, Ryo/ why are you so insecure? You don’t believe in my feelings?”
“No, it’s just…” Ryo bit his lip. “Hey, where did you get it?!”
Shige gently stroked his cheek “Does it matter?”
“Not really” mumbled Ryo. “Though it’s embarrassing”.
“There is nothing embarrassing about expressing your true feelings”, assured Shige. “Though I agree that you’re not right for me”.
Ryo looked crushed; his arms fall loose from Shige’s waist: well he was afraid of that and was right.
“You’re not right for me”, repeated Shige and cupped Ryo’s face. “Because you’re perfect. I don’t need anyone else, but you. I love you the way you are, but if you can be a little bit more open in your feelings, I’ll love you more, though I don’t think it’s possible”.
“I’ll try”, breathed Ryo against Shige’s lips. “Thank you. I really needed it”.
“Ok. Now shut up and kiss me already!” mumbled Shige.
Ryo doesn’t need to be told twice, so he lean in and kiss his precious Shige. Slow and gentle with so much love and tenderness. Now he was sure to never letting Shige go.
Where the hell the CUT thing?
Author: kamepi_love
Pairing: NishiKato
Rating: PG
Genre: romance, a little fluff
Summary: Shige finds a very interesting letter
Author's Note: mistakes I suppose.
I’ve got nothing but you. But at the same time you don’t belong to me, because you love your freedom too much and I have no right to take it from you. I love you too damn much. I don’t deserve you, I know, but still…a man can dream, right? And so I dream and try to hold myself back from being angry at Koyama for his stupid phrases about your love and oh, so special friendship. I try so hard, but it’s stronger than me and I’m too weak. Weak to your smiles, your bright eyes, your voice. I’m weak to you.
It’s like insomnia that burns me from the inside little by little everyday. It’s painful, but pleasant at the same time. I’m a fucking masochist, am I? But everything about you drives me crazy, makes me loose control and I just can’t stop this feeling. I don’t want to. You’re my weakness and my power. I love you. So much that sometimes it’s hard to breath. I want you by my side. Always. I want you to love me, to be proud of me. I can’t imagine my life without you.
I never thought that I can feel that way. Who would guess that among all people I would fall for you? Fall hard and fast, without opportunity to fall out. But on the other hand it seems so natural and right. Perfect even. We even have the same kanji in our names. Does it mean that we were meant to be? It sounds so lame and stupid, yet I want it to be true. I’m so insecure, that I can believe in anything that confirm that we were made for each other. I know, I never show it, but I feel so insecure.
Shige, you’re like a sunshine that lightens up my whole life. Thanks to you I can experience such strong and wonderful feelings, that I don’t even know before. I know I’m a jealous freak and not right for you, but still…I want to be the one for you like you’re the one for me. I’m afraid of that day when you got tired of me, my pride, my possessiveness and snarky remarks. I don’t think I can survive without you by my side…
Thank you for happiness that you give me, for inspiration, for lazy mornings and heated nights, for warmth and comfort, for always being there. For every single smile.
I’m sorry for every time you were disappointed in me. Sorry for every single tear drop because of me. I’m really sorry, but I just love you too much, though I’m not very vocal about it, sorry for that too.
If you could love me for whom I’m, with all my imperfections, then I don’t need anything else.
Yours Ryo.
Shige read it about ten times, but still can’t quite believe, because seriously Ryo and letters? That’s just…no. But at the same time he knows his handwriting very well and the style, so he is 100 percent positive, it’s Ryo writing. And that revelation makes Shige’s heart beats faster and a stupid grin appears on his lips, which only widens when he feels two warm arms around his waist and a soft, so gentle kiss behind his right ear.
“What’re you doing?” asks Ryo, while noses his neck and purring quietly.
“A letter from a fan boy” answers Shige, enjoying his lover’s ministrations. “It’s so touching; I’d like to meet him”.
“Why?” Ryo tensed up behind him, his arms becomes tighter around Shige’s waist, like he’s afraid that if he let go, Shige would disappear.
“Because this letter makes me fall in love with him again and again every time I read it. Fall for him even deeper than before”.
Shige turned around to face his lover and smiled “You’re so stupid, Ryo/ why are you so insecure? You don’t believe in my feelings?”
“No, it’s just…” Ryo bit his lip. “Hey, where did you get it?!”
Shige gently stroked his cheek “Does it matter?”
“Not really” mumbled Ryo. “Though it’s embarrassing”.
“There is nothing embarrassing about expressing your true feelings”, assured Shige. “Though I agree that you’re not right for me”.
Ryo looked crushed; his arms fall loose from Shige’s waist: well he was afraid of that and was right.
“You’re not right for me”, repeated Shige and cupped Ryo’s face. “Because you’re perfect. I don’t need anyone else, but you. I love you the way you are, but if you can be a little bit more open in your feelings, I’ll love you more, though I don’t think it’s possible”.
“I’ll try”, breathed Ryo against Shige’s lips. “Thank you. I really needed it”.
“Ok. Now shut up and kiss me already!” mumbled Shige.
Ryo doesn’t need to be told twice, so he lean in and kiss his precious Shige. Slow and gentle with so much love and tenderness. Now he was sure to never letting Shige go.
Where the hell the CUT thing?