Kame Birthday Post
It's February 23 again. A date with such prominence to me just how Christmas is December 25.
How long was it already? 8 years I guess? That long? Even I still can't believe that it's that long. But when I count it down, oh yes it is THAT long.
I thought I will never write this post anymore. Forgot that I always have this birthday post thing I do every year for you. And every time I read the previous ones (for inspiration haha), I don't think I can top it anymore. But I will try again for this year because this time is special. :)
I will honestly say that the past year had been full of rocky-road-feelings for you. I always think that my admiration is not as strong anymore and anger towards you is a consistent remark I give. Most people don't even consider me as your fan (I dunno what aura I'm showing to people now) and the first question I was asked for 2015 at CDL was, "Are you a fan of Kamenashi?" and I answered without second thoughts, "No, I'm not." That time, I felt guilty but it also gave me a liberating feeling thinking that I finally moved on. Free from your tying charms or whatnot, finally found a new one more worthy, yada yada yada... but just last month, while walking aimlessly to the train station, I just realized these things:
1. I will love you do anyway so why would I even bother with over thinking, and
2. I will just accept whatever happens...just like how Kamenashi Kazuya handles it.
Sounds simple, but I really struggled about ACCEPTANCE before. Or more like, UNDERSTANDING. I always tell people that I felt like my love for you matured with these realizations. After loving you like crazy for years and then reaching the point of hating you and trying to find someone else, now I'm just sticking to the idea that I will love you always anyway and just going with the flow.
This post is so funny I can't...so I'll just go with..
HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY KAMENASHI KAZUYA!
And you know what Kame, still, for the 8th consecutive year, THANK YOU. For being one of the reasons that kept on pushing me to do more and more in life than just a plain old one. Believe it or not, you are one of the reasons I keep on doing what I do. It's not easy and I had to give up a lot of stuff but it also makes me look at more doors that are going to open for me in the future.
I'll just go with the flow with you. Do what you have to do and I know you'll do it good. Great even.