Gyah....
I keep wrestling with myself...
I keep feeling like everyday is a countdown to doomsday. Im really trying hard to fight it, but it gets so hard some time.
I want to talk to amanda, but i always feel like im bugging her. I know she wants a break and I really should let her have it. I just worry about her too much. I don't know why... Its just what I do. I want to protect her all the time, and i know i cant.
Other than that nothing interesting happening im my world. Ive become a little more comfortable telling people my problem. Im starting tyo tell people im leaving Home Depot and they ask me what new job am I getting and it breaks my heart to have to lie to people. because thats just not who I am. Im getting some support from my friends at home depot but every time i explain my self, I get overwhelmed with an intense fear of rejection... It sucks.
Anyways I ramble, as is what I do late at nigjt when Im tired. g'night.
PS... SOMEBODY LEAVE ME A DAMN NOTE lol
I keep feeling like everyday is a countdown to doomsday. Im really trying hard to fight it, but it gets so hard some time.
I want to talk to amanda, but i always feel like im bugging her. I know she wants a break and I really should let her have it. I just worry about her too much. I don't know why... Its just what I do. I want to protect her all the time, and i know i cant.
Other than that nothing interesting happening im my world. Ive become a little more comfortable telling people my problem. Im starting tyo tell people im leaving Home Depot and they ask me what new job am I getting and it breaks my heart to have to lie to people. because thats just not who I am. Im getting some support from my friends at home depot but every time i explain my self, I get overwhelmed with an intense fear of rejection... It sucks.
Anyways I ramble, as is what I do late at nigjt when Im tired. g'night.
PS... SOMEBODY LEAVE ME A DAMN NOTE lol