i feel hopeless.
Waking up not-so-happily this morning due to the massive drilling sound from around my house area and then I switched on the laptop, hoping to get some good news from the comm but it all turned out to be... even way more horrible of spoiling my whole day.
Its exciting to know that KAT-TUN is holding their tour this year in Asia and I really wanna go! Especially the ones in Taiwan... But the thing is... I duno how to get about it. Even if I can go to Taiwan in August, I doubt I will get the concert tickets though. *sigh* Another thing that upsets me is that a KAT-TUN live concert in Asia with Akanishi Jin. Is that still called a KAT-TUN concert? Its not that I am not supportive of Jin entering into the US market and perform concerts in L.A. but its just that... must the time really be clashed like this? Who is the one planning all this?
Back in 2007, its understandable that the concerts were done by only KT-TUN because Akanishi Jin was still in L.A., studying. But this time round, to me, its like purposely, intentionally making and going at the concert tour without the A of KAT-TUN.
Johnny-san, what are you thinking about?
Its a great deal that Akanishi Jin is able to perform his own solo concert in L.A. and be supported. Hell yes. I support him in that too. But... what about KAT-TUN? Have you ever thought about the consequence in terms of the whole group? You belong to a group, not an individual in JE. Though Kame had said his piece of supportment, and I think he's right. But somehow, I think its natural that the band members sure feel a bit sense of disappointment. But in regards to that, I felt utterly disappointed as well.
I really hope I am not losing faith in him, in the whole group, in everything relating to them because of this issue. I just thought that when things in my real life doesnt go the way I wanted, I hope to get some comfort from them, from the comm, but it seems like I'm not.
Dont get me wrong, I am supportive in both Akanishi Jin going solo in L.A. and KT-TUN doing their Asia tour without the A, just that I dont feel too good for the whole thing here. Somehow, I just feel that it's disappointing to see them achieving their so-called "going worldwide" in this way. It's never what I, or we fans have ever expected, I think.
What else can be said now? Everything's being decided, isn't it?
I will still support KAT-TUN, I will still support Kame, I will still support Jin. If they think that by doing this decision, it's really going to be good for their careers, then okay, I will be supportive of it too.
I just wish for everything to be going smoothly and be successful, KAT-TUN!
My life still goes on, I still have to revise for my upcoming main exams in MAY. Damn, May again. I cant afford to lose faith in everything now. I have to GO. Go, go, go! Just maybe forsake the idea of going to their concert in Taiwan... *sigh*