weird.

[kamande]

so i don't know why i'm sharing this, but i thought i just would.
i was returning from a noteworthy gig this afternoon around 1:45pm.
i was all dressed up.
it was sunny.
i tried using my keys to open my apartment.
i couldn't do it.
i tried the bolt, i tried the knob.
for maybe ten, fifteen minutes i tried opening the door.
i tried kicking, pushing. nothing.
my roommate was gone.
i didn't want to call him. i knew he was busy.
i didn't want to bother my neighbors to ask for help.
i don't really know them anyway.
i was so frustrated.
i didn't know what to do.
i panicked.
i live on the third floor.
there's a courtyard in the middle.
i thought about jumping off.
ending it all.

i don't know why.
it was weird.

but everything is fine.
no need to worry.

it was just weird.