Just... something.
Pen, give me a pen,
I want to write
Let me write
I cried tonight
what is wrong with me
I cried without a drink
I showed emotion
I can't think
Let me pace the backyard...
Dad asked me what I want to be
how I was going to make in the big bad world,
And I tried...
I really tried
to pretrend i could be
This amazing person
someone who believed.
I lost faith
and i cried
I can't be this picture perfect lullaby
barbie girl wannabe
Noone can understand
the pain, the disorder
how many times
i was told to be brave
Nobody knows
It's I'm loosing blood
and i'm weak.
Depends how deep the wound is.
I want another beer
GIVE ME A GODDAMN BEER
...give me a beer
I know you can hear me
please hear me
And i cry
and cry
cry.
Let me cry
I don't know why
Why?
Who really knows who they want to be?
why they want to be
What sane person doesn't strive to be
what they want to be?
Why can't the world let me be, who I want to be?
Let me try
Let me be good at it
Let me love being good at it
Let me love
Let me feel
Let me love and let me feel
I can't lie
Why not me?
It makes me breathe in the guttered air
seek sanctuary where its not needed
and never left alone
Let me breathe the toxic air
Let me breathe it in
Its not fair
Nothing is fair
Why me?
Why me?
i'm not the cool kid
with parents who trust
don't feel the worthlessness and don't believe
in the person I already am
That is me
They don't see me
No little princess
Not good enough
never good enough
I hope you read this
and you feel
the way that I feel
I hope it touches the soul
and tears fall
I know for fact you dont have this fire
this saddened soul of mine
And I cry
I still cry
Just hold meand tell me your proud
that you believe me
when I say I've tried
I try and try
AND TRY
I just want to be
who I want to be
I just to be...
Times ticking and my
conscienous is bleeding
I'm tired, weak
To feel to see
to love to be
to hate to breathe
to be me.
Except it
Coz I am it
Another beer...
Give me another beer.
So I cry.