im not o fucking k. !
all of this pain just built up inside of me.. it needed to get out... ready... here we go...
the first person to ever hurt me to the point of where i thought i would never be able to stand again. alorie.. she hurt me like you wouldn't believe.. and yet while she was killing me inside, i knew that i couldn't leave her side. she would come around in the end. it would all be worth it, that with every tear that feel for her.. she would realize it and she would stop it, for a long time she didn't though, it just kept going, i can't even put words to the amount of pain i felt from her. i was and am the only one that never left, that stayed and waiting for the storm to pass. its funny how before this post i had it all planned out in my head of how i would write it down to ever word, every last fucking word. but as i write this. i am forgetting what i wanted to write. how i wanted to say all of this.. the stress just built up like you wouldn't believe.. i tried so hard to stay strong and just wait until it would all just LEAVE.. but it hasn't .. for fucking mounths.. gone.. the first tear of these months has fallen. not because of what people have said. done. just me realizing it. i understand how much alorie does love me, it may of taken all of this for her to understand me, to finally get that i wont leave not matter what she does. i think i might of proven that to her.. god i hope so.
the pain is like no other pain. i wish it for no one. .. if i could i would keep it with me.. may you not feel this amount of pain..
what kind of person am i ?? if i could only find the answer
its so easy to just smile. and act like nothing is there..
the first person to ever hurt me to the point of where i thought i would never be able to stand again. alorie.. she hurt me like you wouldn't believe.. and yet while she was killing me inside, i knew that i couldn't leave her side. she would come around in the end. it would all be worth it, that with every tear that feel for her.. she would realize it and she would stop it, for a long time she didn't though, it just kept going, i can't even put words to the amount of pain i felt from her. i was and am the only one that never left, that stayed and waiting for the storm to pass. its funny how before this post i had it all planned out in my head of how i would write it down to ever word, every last fucking word. but as i write this. i am forgetting what i wanted to write. how i wanted to say all of this.. the stress just built up like you wouldn't believe.. i tried so hard to stay strong and just wait until it would all just LEAVE.. but it hasn't .. for fucking mounths.. gone.. the first tear of these months has fallen. not because of what people have said. done. just me realizing it. i understand how much alorie does love me, it may of taken all of this for her to understand me, to finally get that i wont leave not matter what she does. i think i might of proven that to her.. god i hope so.
the pain is like no other pain. i wish it for no one. .. if i could i would keep it with me.. may you not feel this amount of pain..
what kind of person am i ?? if i could only find the answer
its so easy to just smile. and act like nothing is there..