ouch
ouch.
With almost every time i lose someone dear to me
due to a fault of mine i try and take inventory.
on things that i didnt notice were broken in my life untill
they are pointed out to me
and ways that i can change them.
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1.
ive got a lot to do and not a lot of time to do it.
last night i did a lot of thinking.
and figured at least one thing out.
im going to school
for something. probably cosmotology
at least there ive got a foot in the door.
so as soon as i get my new night hours at work
i'll be walking down to blaine to have a meeting.
2.
i am going to keep a good distance from booze more often than not now
it took a lot
to make me reolize what does and does not affect my life around me.
and im only going to drink in stiuations and with people who make me
comfortable now.
in fact i am only going to BE around people who make me comfortable from
now on.
i need to find a way to remove my self from situations and reolise that
no, keri. you dont owe them shit.
3.
get ready to move out of here.,
this house has bad mojo
people follow me here who i no longer want around,
i am GOING to start bringing my things to cherryls
but i refuse to live with jim.,
the way i figure it if jims not out by the time i start paying rent
at least i am on a first floor apt by then.
maybe ill wash the salt off my face take a walk and draw a picture somewhere today.
its been a while.
With almost every time i lose someone dear to me
due to a fault of mine i try and take inventory.
on things that i didnt notice were broken in my life untill
they are pointed out to me
and ways that i can change them.
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1.
ive got a lot to do and not a lot of time to do it.
last night i did a lot of thinking.
and figured at least one thing out.
im going to school
for something. probably cosmotology
at least there ive got a foot in the door.
so as soon as i get my new night hours at work
i'll be walking down to blaine to have a meeting.
2.
i am going to keep a good distance from booze more often than not now
it took a lot
to make me reolize what does and does not affect my life around me.
and im only going to drink in stiuations and with people who make me
comfortable now.
in fact i am only going to BE around people who make me comfortable from
now on.
i need to find a way to remove my self from situations and reolise that
no, keri. you dont owe them shit.
3.
get ready to move out of here.,
this house has bad mojo
people follow me here who i no longer want around,
i am GOING to start bringing my things to cherryls
but i refuse to live with jim.,
the way i figure it if jims not out by the time i start paying rent
at least i am on a first floor apt by then.
maybe ill wash the salt off my face take a walk and draw a picture somewhere today.
its been a while.