mortified
I have had my best week at school since I came here, but for some reason I have just gone from being really happy to being really sad. Ok here is a long story. On monday I met this new guy in my building he moved in with a guy who had already been here all year. The new guy was cool and we hung out quite a bit, and I introduced him to some people. while hanging out with him I got to know his roommate. In all of my life I have never found anyone who I had so much in common with. And it is not just the weird petty things, even though it does include those, but it is the way our bodies react to things, things we say. I just keep finding new things everyday. To top off our amazing connections he is so sweet and cuddly. The only thing that sucks is that I refuse to be this way with him because he has a girlfriend. I don't want to go there because I have been in her shoes, and I refuse to do that to someone else. People confuse me, andI don't like it. I wish people just did and said what they thought and felt. Then I would not fell so damned confused all of the time. Yes I know that i sould not analyze and think so much, and that I sould just let life happen, butI don't work like that. The other problem is that I am now offically homesick.