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I just found out that my Aunt Eileen died last night. She wasn't a huge part of my life, but I saw her every time we went to Michigan when I was a kid and it's strange to think that I'll never see her again. She was 88 and lived a pretty good life, atleast that I know about.
The upsetting part of this is that it is making my parent's mortality much clearer to me. My parents, especially my dad, are very old and as much as I try to not think about them dying I can't help it. There was a little while this summer that my dad thought that he might have parkinson's. As it turns out he has an "essentual tremmor", which is secret code for "he shakes sometimes and no one knows why". It's not a big deal at all, but if still freaks me out. Everyone dies eventually, I just wish that I knew that my parent's weren't going to for a very, very long time.
In other news, I've gained weight. My clothes don't fit like they should and I feel more or less kind of dumpy all the time. I'm hoping that my body will regulate, but just to make sure I'm going to start...*gulp*...running. Ugh.
I feel like there's a bunch of stuff going on in my life, but I'm in the most unexpressive mood ever right now and I should probably just go to sleep.
The upsetting part of this is that it is making my parent's mortality much clearer to me. My parents, especially my dad, are very old and as much as I try to not think about them dying I can't help it. There was a little while this summer that my dad thought that he might have parkinson's. As it turns out he has an "essentual tremmor", which is secret code for "he shakes sometimes and no one knows why". It's not a big deal at all, but if still freaks me out. Everyone dies eventually, I just wish that I knew that my parent's weren't going to for a very, very long time.
In other news, I've gained weight. My clothes don't fit like they should and I feel more or less kind of dumpy all the time. I'm hoping that my body will regulate, but just to make sure I'm going to start...*gulp*...running. Ugh.
I feel like there's a bunch of stuff going on in my life, but I'm in the most unexpressive mood ever right now and I should probably just go to sleep.