SOOOOOO!
So, I'm feeling much better today than yesterday. Not that anyone cares. I don't know Katie's death has been really hard for me to take in and I think it's gonna take a while for me to get over even though I wasn't overly close with her. The whole situation is so wrong, she was such a bright light and she will be severly misses. It's wierd to think that I won't be seeing her at church every week and that we won't be soing volunteer work with the little kiddies together... those little kiddies loved her. It's sp sad, Yesterday was her funeral and It was the single saddest feeling I have ever felt in my life, I was weeping, souldn't even pretend to hole it in. It was worse than that time I was menstral and Emily and I put in Beaches. I'm sorry I will warn you now, I don't deal with saddness well... I make awkward jokes that aren't funny! Anyway, so then I went to work and was balling the whole way there. and no lie, I had a CD in and Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World came on... so I started weeping, then I turned on the radio and I swear on my uncles nephews third grandpa twice removed's grave, Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton was on. I was AWFUL! So I got to work and everyone awkwardly stared and tried to make small talk, adn I faught back tears, then told my supervisor that I needed to go outside to push carriages and then I spent 4 hours doing that. the I went running with Trenna... don't laugh I'm not lieing I did! I've decided that I going to start working out. It'll be fun, and ho Yin from work is teaching me how to play Tennis starting Tuesday! I'm not going t stay being all lazy anymore, I think that's why I'm in a slump! II'm going to explore the great outdoors, workout and learn new things. I'm going to change this summer from the summer of tears to the summer of growth, both in the mental sense and the physical sense. I'm going to go back to school and actually DO something while I'm there! And Emily will do it with me because she spent all that time complaining about hw lazy I made her! Well, sorry Em, things are going to change! Happy 4th of July I love you all one million swedish fish plus Uncle Sam!