Back issues
I'm having trouble figuring out how to go through life while keeping my back in mind. Tasks as simple as getting myself to school have become problems that require a lot of trial, error, and pain. I have altered my daily life significantly to accommodate it and I think it's slowly wearing me down. Just today I had to stay home from school, because when I woke up I could hardly stand. Skipping school is not an easy thing for me to do. But in the past when I've pushed through and gone despite the pain, I've wound up in the hospital, so I begrudgingly accepted this as the better option. Although a day of rest has certainly improved my condition to the point where I can stand without too much trouble, I'm not sure I can continue to pay such high prices when it comes to time off from school (or work) for rest. I think part of what really got me today was the fact that I hurt myself while I was sleeping. I can take steps during the day to protect my back. I have been taking them. I've spent days experimenting with how much I can handle and altering what I carry with me on a regular basis to accommodate my limitations. But how am I to protect myself while I slumber? Are all my efforts ultimately in vain? Am I doomed to injure myself repeatably in a manner that I cannot prevent? I'm pretty sure that's not the case, but the prospect has me worried none the less.