Dear God, this is for you...

[kalomari]

I know you can see all so I know you will read this, Lord I have tried and tried to coupe with everything I miss you God in my life. I don't have much I never have but when I had you in my life it was like that didn't matter and I suddenly had everything, the world. Please lord you know waht my every hearts desire is, the only thing I want for Christmas lord is from you take my heart into your hand and hold it close, hold me close and heal it, heal me. That is all that I would ask of for Chirstmas it's just knowone can give that to me but you, it hurts jesus not having you in my life. Blocking you out like I do because I have so much pain so much hate and I direct it all towards you because of everything thats happened to me. I try to go to church but it's no onger the same God I miss the way it was I want it ot be that way again, all I'm asking is please God open my heart up again to you to the truth to everything that I was, show me it wasn't because of her. Show me that I did what I did for me lord I'm going to try this again I sit in my room a snoring Jake by my bedside but I kneel anyways and I ask you again for forgiveness for everything. I have forsaken you and it has been intentional please God forgive me let me try it again for me this time completely for me, I know I can do this if you give me a push, if you guide me. Please lord don't lose sight of me give me the guidence you once did that I once ignored I need to be healed of my broken heart once again, let me forget her lord please let me just forget.

Help Me Lord

Love Richard Phillip Glen Hill

"A man who steps out of the flames of hell and into faith is a man who can accept any challenge and go against all odds, even more than once."

I believe lord, please return my faith.